DiscoBiscuit
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Oh totally, I have had arguments and lost friends because I wasn't able to just have fun with it and I needed to win and made it all about winning. I have toned down quite a bit in terms of how I come across when I am competing with other people, but I still feel the same way internally. I just tend to be more careful about it, like strategically it makes more sense for me to not win every single time I do something so as not to hurt peoples feelings that I compete against, this in turn makes them want to compete more and I can pick and choose when I turn it on, this means sometimes I am just having fun and others I am really trying to improve myself. But if I don't go 100% all the time then I have more practice anyway because people aren't afraid to compete with me. Does that make sense? lol
Makes total sense.
I still did it when I played varsity tennis in high school. Luckily I had internalized it though. When I would get pissed, I would punch the strings of my racket between points.
I still have scars on my knuckles.