For a long time as a kid I had no idea what I wanted to be - just something that I'd enjoy doing for a living, I guess. I was a creative and happy INFP as a kid but I didn't usually think too much about the future. I just figured I'd find out what I'd do for a living someday later. I actually discovered what I wanted to do (either as a career or dedicated hobby, my indecisiveness even plagues me with my passions) completely by accident.
I was about 12 or 13, roughly 3-4 years ago, when I installed Flight Simulator 2004 onto my computer. I had played with it before, but more as a game or a toy - I was easily amused at 8 years old doing barrel rolls with Boeing jets. But after a few years of not playing, and then suddenly trying to get back into it, I had taken a different approach. I wanted to find out more about airplanes - especially civilian, small aircraft. It irked me when my friends, whenever the topic of planes came up, only wanted to talk about military fighters or Boeing jets. I felt like it was cliche to only know about these kinds of planes - I had enough awareness to know that there was so much more to airplanes and aviation than the ones people usually see.
So when I installed Flight Simulator, naturally I felt inclined to learn more about the vintage or smaller planes. Whenever I'd play the game with these aircraft, I felt like I had to be much more proper and "real" with them. I felt a lot of satisfaction knowing I was doing things "the correct" way. I soon wanted to learn how to fly for real. Sadly, I haven't motivated myself enough to actually do anything about it yet.
I'm still unsure exactly what I'd like to do. I fear that aviation is something that I won't be able to handle as a job - though I have recently come to realize that there are other jobs besides flying planes - it's important to know the business side to aviation companies, and also how airports function. I would like to see myself working with people at airports - exactly what and how, I'm not sure. People say I have a talent for writing, but I've never seen it as a main source of income for me.
Sorry about the rant, you've probably heard more about aviation than you ever really wanted to know. But like I've said, it's what I'm passionate about. To put it simply, I love flying, but am unsure if it is the right kind of career path for me. But, then again, I don't know what else I'd try to pursue. It's confusing, and I make it so on purpose I guess.