Billy
Crazy Diamond
- Joined
- Oct 20, 2009
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- MBTI Type
- INFJ
I often don’t regard things as right/wrong – it’s often just a matter of perspective
*There's a lot of things I regard as wrong, though context can be important. Basically, people disagree about things an awful lot, and what I was trying to capture was the way in which I often regard multiple viewpoints/opinions as 'right' on some level. The level of moral implication or magnitude implied by 'right/wrong' covers a very wide range as well.*
Relate. I have a set of interior ethics which I feel guilt if I dally away from, but most of them I recognize as simply being values that were put into me by my parents, and thats where the guilt stems from, letting them down... This was a much more prominent feeling as a kid, as I age though it factors less and less and I find myself quite free emotionally in many situations to do things that I sense as "wrong" but that doesnt really bug me. I used to always ask questions to myself like "what would dad think if I did this, or how would this make my mother feel, not anymore. I have settled into my moral nihilism rather nicely.
If I’m not sure what to do about something, I tend to wait for the ‘right’ solution to emerge naturally, rather than force a decision
Dont relate
If there is 1 thing I hate its WAITING! UGH! I try to gather as much data and advice and discussion as I can about something and then I make a choice. If its wrong, I learn from my mistakes and apply those lessons to the future, I am not afraid of failure, but not doing something would drive me nuts!
I seem to spend an awful lot of time trying to ‘figure things out’
relate
This is what my natural state is, I am incredibly curious and I am always trying to figure some riddle out, be it a person, a problem, the nature of life etc.
I'm often pre-occupied with resolving/exploring negative emotions
*'Negative' in this context can be taken to mean emotions like melancholy, despair, anger, fear, shame, guilt etc., regardless of whether these are perceived to have 'value' or not.*
Dont relate
Eh, not really. If I deem the feeling illogical and harmful to what I want to accomplish I will try to figure out where it stems from and if I can quantify its illogical nature I will force myself to ignore it. If I dub the feelings as authentic I attack the problems that cause it. But in general I dont focus on my emotions like that, I focus more on my situation and other peoples feelings and how they feel about me and how I come off to them.
I feel I need other people's acceptance too much – it can interfere with my independence of mind/self-expression
hmm, relate/ dont relate.
For people that matter to me, their acceptance of me is vital. For people who dont really factor into my life or emotions I could give a fuck less. I never cared about popularity or fitting in. I actually prefer not being under scrutiny or people paying me attention, I feel like I cannot operate effectively.
I'll isolate myself/risk loneliness to obtain relative independence of mind/self-expression, if necessary.
Dont relate.
I do this naturally anyway, but after I recharge I NEED to be around people I love and admire otherwise I feel like I am rotting away.
I can't imagine feeling anyone was an extension of myself – this is a totally alien concept to me
Relate
A woman? No, definitely not. My children one day? Yes for sure, not only physically will they be an extension of me, but by my raising them, I will see some of my consciousness awake in them I am certain.
I find typologies like Jung/MBTI/Enneagram overly interpretative – I wish there was a way of objectively establishing type
Agree... and I hate that people use it like astrology and a new way to prove how much better they are then other people. Ns vs S's T's Vs F's its fucking boring.
Especially since MBTI is so flimsy.
I’ve had a lot of trouble typing, because I see highly contrasting sides to myself, some of which seem incompatible with INFx
Relate. Sometimes I think I am a T, and other times I KNOW I am an F I bounce between INFJ, INTJ, and INTP.
I often worry about being a ‘rotten’ person deep down, and can feel guilty merely imagining myself as capable of doing something 'bad' or selfish
Dont relate.
I cant see myself hurting people who are innocent, but partake sometimes in violent fantasies about revenge, retribution and carnage for those that I feel have wronged me. At the core I know there is no good or bad, and that its all ultimately perspective, and I have done messed up stuff, so It doesnt really phase me because people are people.
I can be highly amused by my own imagined scenarios. Sometimes what is amusing me is just a concept/abstraction.
Totally. All I have is my imagination.
Immediate reality tends to bore me. I escape into fantasy regularly.
Reality isnt boring, its just not stimulating enough. People, society, rules, are boring and common, I trail off when people are talking to me ALL THE TIME because of the banality.
Sometimes I think reality is just there to suggest the possibilities, like the raw material to (psychologically) construct something better or more interesting/inspiring.
Dont relate... I just experience it as it comes, I try not to subscribe that there is any actual meaning beyond what I give it. Things just are what they are and there is no reason for it or any of its possibilities.
I hate disorganisation, chaos and being unprepared. I have aids to attempt to ‘tame’ this, e.g. spreadsheets, lists, being tidy etc.
I dont mind a little disorganization as long as I got the plan in my head. I keep it all in there anyway, so I could care less if my desk is messy unless its going to paint me in a bad picture or something and I need to set a good impression. The only thing close to this that I dislike is when people are slow or incapable of making decisions based on the info at hand.
I'm more likely to do what the moment suggests as the best thing to do (if it 'suggests' anything) than stick with a pre-prepared plan, if left to my own devices (for better or worse).
Yes and no, I will often make a decision or a plan on shitty data knowing it will change later just so I can have something settled, I dont mind changing course if I have to or correcting mistakes as long as I am making progress.