EdBogie
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- Aug 18, 2010
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- MBTI Type
- INFJ
Well, I've taken quite a few tests and read up a decent amount as well, but I'm still not entirely sure of my type. Just when I think I've found a match, I read something that contradicts it and it stumps me. There's a lot of things in both INFJ and INFP that seem to apply to me, but if what I hear is correct, the two are very different. o_0
Anywho! I'm going to try to give a overly detailed description of myself, or at least how I view myself and what I've been told, and see if you "typology" masters can figure me out, haha... x_x
First of all, I've written more in this post than I would probably speak in at least a week's period. I'm never this open about myself, but I frequent many forums and find it much easier to open up to people who don't know me in real life. I doubt anyone will actually read all this, in fact I'm not even sure why I'm typing all this out.... but none-the-less! Here it is.
~ As stated above, I'm very quiet, even around close friends. I'll almost never talk unless spoken to, and if I do it's so quiet that 90% of the time they won't hear me. Showing emotion is difficult for me, I feel that when I do try to show my emotions, it comes out forced and appears fake, even if it's just a shadow of what I feel inside. My friends mean the world to me and I would literally do anything for them, but I often feel that they think I really don't care because of my reserved disposition. I also feel that people who don't know me think that I'm avoiding them because I don't like them, when I really just try to stay out of people's way.
~ I hate myself for that, other things too, but mostly that. I feel a strong desire to help and reach out to people or at least appear somewhat friendly, but I'm held back by my own lack of self-confidence. I despise the thought of being the one who tries to help someone, but fails and ends up being more of a nuisance than a help. Giving (and receiving) compliments is very awkward for me. Socializing drains me and I need my alone time, but if I don't see my friends at least once a week I feel terrible. The thought of losing them terrifies me. The thought of them in pain/suffering kills me, but all I can seem to offer in response to their troubles is a lame "I'm sorry." I hate that about myself, with a passion.
~ I rarely feel anger towards the majority of people, I'm not annoyed easily, and I'm overly apologetic. You step on my toe, I'll say sorry because I was in your way. I don't mind when people cut me in line. I'm not usually offended by insults, because I'll most likely agree with you and I'll be angry at myself if anyone. I don't like annoying people or causing people to do anything more for me than they have to. If I get the wrong order at a restaurant, I'll just eat it to keep from causing the waiter trouble. I'll usually decline people's food/drink offers when I'm at their house. I hate being late. I'm not afraid to laugh at myself and/or admit I was wrong. I don't like conflict.
~ However! If you do get on my bad side, which is pretty hard to do, I'm pretty much the complete opposite of what I stated above. My dad is one of those people, and I can't help but feel raw anger swell up at just the sight of him. I'll avoid him for the most part, but when we are together we're constantly arguing. I can't stand his judgmental, hypocritical, "my crap smells good" mentality, and it shows. Voices are raised, doors are slammed, and I will relentlessly defend my case. I also have no tolerance for people that mess with my friends, and will boldly confront them at whatever cost.
~ I'm very indecisive. Picking out birthday cards for friends can take hours. When making any purchase, I will read up endlessly on the pros and cons, studying each one carefully before finally making a decision. Bigger ticket items can take months, even years.
~ I'm not competitive with other people, I don't mind losing, in fact I prefer it. I am, however, VERY competitive against myself, constantly striving to improve at whatever I'm doing. I'm very, very hard on myself. I'm highly self motivated in things I have an interest in. I will try to learn whatever it is inside-out. I'll read as much as possible on the subject, set up a practice/study schedule, watch instructional videos, ect...
~ If I lack interest though, I have awful procrastination habits. As a self-taught homeschooler, I'll put off my work until the last moment possible, which often results in me doing a years worth of lessons all in a couple months before my yearly evaluation. I can do it, but I always kick myself in regret as I struggle to cram all the useless, yet "necessary" information.
~ Music is my passion. I play guitar, piano, and Irish whistle, but I would love to play any instrument if I had the time, money, and space. My dream job would be a film score composer, but anything to do with music would be great. I don't believe I'm good enough to make a living off of it though, so I'm not sure what I want to do as a career.
~ I have a strong interest in doing missions work, I love service projects, and I hope to adopt at least one needy child down the road. My relationship with Jesus is extremely important to me, and I want to ultimately serve Him in whatever I end up doing with my life.
~ As a major bookworm, I LOVE to read. I can sit and get lost for hours in a book, mostly fiction. I'm a big fan of word games: Scrabble, Boggle, crosswords, etc... I like to write, but it takes me forever to write anything due to my obsession with editing. I have to make sure it comes out just right, or I'll delete it. Takes me hours to reply to a message from a friend, and I'll still cringe when I press the "send" button. =\
~ I enjoy drawing, photography, speedcubing (solving rubik's cubes and other similar puzzles for speed), Tetris, ping pong, juggling, and card tricks. (in other words, I'm a nerd) I'm decent at math, but I hate it. I love rain/thunderstorms. I like sad films/books/music, "happy endings" annoy me. I daydream often. I'm drawn to strange, somewhat disturbing things. I LOVE cats. (I will no doubt be that crazy old lady with 50+ cats when I'm elderly.) I hate crowds. At parties, you will either find me alone in a corner, or hanging out with the household pets. I'm entirely nocturnal, I go to sleep at 7-8AM and get up at 3-4PM, I love night time.
~ I keep a pretty low-profile appearance. I wear all black, just t-shirts and jeans. No makeup, accessories, etc... I've got long hair that I wear down in my face. I'd be open to wearing bolder/artsier clothing, but I hate attention. My friends are constantly bugging me about my posture, which is terrible at best.
~ I'm messy yet organized at the same time... if that makes any sense. My room looks like a mess, but I have a spot for everything, and I know where everything is. If someone comes in my room and moves even the smallest thing, I'll notice it immediately.
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Woah, sorry for the massive post. Didn't intend for it to be that long, ugh, sorry. =\
Anywho, feel free to ask me questions. Any replies are greatly appreciated, but I don't blame you if you don't want to read all that.
Anywho! I'm going to try to give a overly detailed description of myself, or at least how I view myself and what I've been told, and see if you "typology" masters can figure me out, haha... x_x
First of all, I've written more in this post than I would probably speak in at least a week's period. I'm never this open about myself, but I frequent many forums and find it much easier to open up to people who don't know me in real life. I doubt anyone will actually read all this, in fact I'm not even sure why I'm typing all this out.... but none-the-less! Here it is.
~ As stated above, I'm very quiet, even around close friends. I'll almost never talk unless spoken to, and if I do it's so quiet that 90% of the time they won't hear me. Showing emotion is difficult for me, I feel that when I do try to show my emotions, it comes out forced and appears fake, even if it's just a shadow of what I feel inside. My friends mean the world to me and I would literally do anything for them, but I often feel that they think I really don't care because of my reserved disposition. I also feel that people who don't know me think that I'm avoiding them because I don't like them, when I really just try to stay out of people's way.
~ I hate myself for that, other things too, but mostly that. I feel a strong desire to help and reach out to people or at least appear somewhat friendly, but I'm held back by my own lack of self-confidence. I despise the thought of being the one who tries to help someone, but fails and ends up being more of a nuisance than a help. Giving (and receiving) compliments is very awkward for me. Socializing drains me and I need my alone time, but if I don't see my friends at least once a week I feel terrible. The thought of losing them terrifies me. The thought of them in pain/suffering kills me, but all I can seem to offer in response to their troubles is a lame "I'm sorry." I hate that about myself, with a passion.
~ I rarely feel anger towards the majority of people, I'm not annoyed easily, and I'm overly apologetic. You step on my toe, I'll say sorry because I was in your way. I don't mind when people cut me in line. I'm not usually offended by insults, because I'll most likely agree with you and I'll be angry at myself if anyone. I don't like annoying people or causing people to do anything more for me than they have to. If I get the wrong order at a restaurant, I'll just eat it to keep from causing the waiter trouble. I'll usually decline people's food/drink offers when I'm at their house. I hate being late. I'm not afraid to laugh at myself and/or admit I was wrong. I don't like conflict.
~ However! If you do get on my bad side, which is pretty hard to do, I'm pretty much the complete opposite of what I stated above. My dad is one of those people, and I can't help but feel raw anger swell up at just the sight of him. I'll avoid him for the most part, but when we are together we're constantly arguing. I can't stand his judgmental, hypocritical, "my crap smells good" mentality, and it shows. Voices are raised, doors are slammed, and I will relentlessly defend my case. I also have no tolerance for people that mess with my friends, and will boldly confront them at whatever cost.
~ I'm very indecisive. Picking out birthday cards for friends can take hours. When making any purchase, I will read up endlessly on the pros and cons, studying each one carefully before finally making a decision. Bigger ticket items can take months, even years.
~ I'm not competitive with other people, I don't mind losing, in fact I prefer it. I am, however, VERY competitive against myself, constantly striving to improve at whatever I'm doing. I'm very, very hard on myself. I'm highly self motivated in things I have an interest in. I will try to learn whatever it is inside-out. I'll read as much as possible on the subject, set up a practice/study schedule, watch instructional videos, ect...
~ If I lack interest though, I have awful procrastination habits. As a self-taught homeschooler, I'll put off my work until the last moment possible, which often results in me doing a years worth of lessons all in a couple months before my yearly evaluation. I can do it, but I always kick myself in regret as I struggle to cram all the useless, yet "necessary" information.
~ Music is my passion. I play guitar, piano, and Irish whistle, but I would love to play any instrument if I had the time, money, and space. My dream job would be a film score composer, but anything to do with music would be great. I don't believe I'm good enough to make a living off of it though, so I'm not sure what I want to do as a career.
~ I have a strong interest in doing missions work, I love service projects, and I hope to adopt at least one needy child down the road. My relationship with Jesus is extremely important to me, and I want to ultimately serve Him in whatever I end up doing with my life.
~ As a major bookworm, I LOVE to read. I can sit and get lost for hours in a book, mostly fiction. I'm a big fan of word games: Scrabble, Boggle, crosswords, etc... I like to write, but it takes me forever to write anything due to my obsession with editing. I have to make sure it comes out just right, or I'll delete it. Takes me hours to reply to a message from a friend, and I'll still cringe when I press the "send" button. =\
~ I enjoy drawing, photography, speedcubing (solving rubik's cubes and other similar puzzles for speed), Tetris, ping pong, juggling, and card tricks. (in other words, I'm a nerd) I'm decent at math, but I hate it. I love rain/thunderstorms. I like sad films/books/music, "happy endings" annoy me. I daydream often. I'm drawn to strange, somewhat disturbing things. I LOVE cats. (I will no doubt be that crazy old lady with 50+ cats when I'm elderly.) I hate crowds. At parties, you will either find me alone in a corner, or hanging out with the household pets. I'm entirely nocturnal, I go to sleep at 7-8AM and get up at 3-4PM, I love night time.
~ I keep a pretty low-profile appearance. I wear all black, just t-shirts and jeans. No makeup, accessories, etc... I've got long hair that I wear down in my face. I'd be open to wearing bolder/artsier clothing, but I hate attention. My friends are constantly bugging me about my posture, which is terrible at best.
~ I'm messy yet organized at the same time... if that makes any sense. My room looks like a mess, but I have a spot for everything, and I know where everything is. If someone comes in my room and moves even the smallest thing, I'll notice it immediately.
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Woah, sorry for the massive post. Didn't intend for it to be that long, ugh, sorry. =\
Anywho, feel free to ask me questions. Any replies are greatly appreciated, but I don't blame you if you don't want to read all that.