Delusions of grandeur and extreme paranoia are what I am seeing. Everything is connected in their mind as part of some conspiracy to ruin them. No appeal to logic or presentation of evidence to the contrary seems to have much effect.
To some extent I can relate to the web this person is seeing in their mind. I see a web of ideas and possibilities in my own mind, the difference is that they're just possibilities and I like to think I have a firm grasp of reality whereas this person thinks it's all real and they don't seem capable of being able to parse the conclusions at which they're arriving from the data that is leading them to these conclusions, even when logically I can see that they are falsely coming to these conclusions of doom and gloom scenarios. It's very difficult to watch happening to this person.
It's also having a negative effect on my own health, as I am prone to anxiety at times. Sometimes their conclusions and conspiracy webs can seem very convincing, initially, until I have taken time to sit and logically think about the whole thing, then the logic holes (and often evidence) becomes apparent and I realize they're still delusional.
Ive been psychotic in the past. For me, it was like- I had just so many thoughts going on in my head- that they would run together- or... it was hard to follow them. Like a one car with 50 different roads going 50 different places- and then you have to actually... somehow- figure out where you 'need' to go. And then there was frustration. When there is so much going on inside your head- anything additional just feels- at least to me- incredibly confusing and overstimulating. It got to a point where... I was
terrified to leave the house because I would see someone grin and all those thoughs would come- 'why are they grinning?'- do they want to hurt me. Yes? No? How do I know? I feel scared. I feel terrified. And now they are looking at me. They definitely want to hurt me. Maybe this is connected to that other guy who looked at me yesterday. Maybe they are in on it together? That doesnt make sense. Why would they want to hurt me? But Im terrified. And how can I KNOW they dont want to hurt me? Do they? Dont they? It feels like they do. Im so scared now it feels like they do. They probably had a meeting where they decided they were going to stare at me. They are watching me because they are deciding how to hurt me. Maybe they are communicating somehow telepathically? But thats not possible? Are they arent they. They probably arent but Im not sure... I can emotionally feel safe.
Time to go now. Way too scared. Why cant I figure this out. Im so fucking stupid. Such a freak.
All those thoughts happening in about 3 seconds. Just constant constant confusion.
With me. It was like... logically I knew certain things were unlikely... but emotionally... I just couldnt... well. Emotionally I felt pulled in a lot of different directions.
Im lucky I had a friend who I would sometimes call who would occasionally go- no thats not happening eskimo. So helpful. Maybe you could ask her if you could be that person. Guide her out of... confusion. Say you realize its scary but you promise promise all you want to do is help. Dont... minimize her beliefs. But just let her talk about them and then maybe... try to... direct her without judgement.
Its scary. No one wants to be in that state. I know you are having a hard time but also remember- no matter how frustrating to you... its probably just as or more frustrating for that person. Constantly feeling lost with a compass that plays tricks on you... is incredibly frustrating and scary. She doesnt want probably to feel/be the way she does. She might even feel bad about it. So its best to try to be supportive rather than... condemning.
The not being able to listen to logic... it never really was that. It was more. Ive described this before. Feeling like there is a gun on me- like there is something THERE- realizing that there probably isnt a gun- but it FEELS like there is something there. And people trying to go through and 'help with logic'- its almost frustrating because... its like you KNOW that there probably isnt something there but you cant just dismiss the terror of the suggestion of that gun. And having people telling you its not there feels- even if this isnt the case- that they are judging you for feeling something you already feel stupid feeling... And you feel so alone.
So. My suggestion. Help her and try to be as least judgemental as possible. Follow her logic and not your own if possible to try to help.
Anyways. Best of luck to you. This sounds hard but I know you are strong enough.