janey_girl
New member
- Joined
- Feb 18, 2009
- Messages
- 74
- MBTI Type
- INtJ
I am now 34 and have spent my life driving myself insane over my personality, who I am and not fitting in with society....
Reading the posts on here the lightbulb just went on. I've been fighting it - been upset with myself for being overly emotional, misunderstood. I have been dragging a "huge" amount of baggage round with me for way too long. I look after others, quite forgetting myself, agree to do things I don't want to do and put people on these idealistic pedastals. I feel as though I am not living out my true "purpose" and just because I feel I can read minds and people I kind of expect others to do the same with me. My communication can be good but I spend such a lot of my time "holding back" so as not to hurt others...
All this stuff has literally been KILLING me on the inside - I'm ok for a while, then I reach exhaustion point (a couple of times a year) and fall into my well of misery feeling "nobody loves me, everybody hates me" and wallow in this woe is me sort of place - then I kind of ping back to life again... Of course everybody I have rejected during my self absorbed stage remembers and it is sometimes impossible to recover as they wait for the next "episode" to take effect....
Thanks for making me feel a lot less insane! Now I can accept and start to work through this!
Reading the posts on here the lightbulb just went on. I've been fighting it - been upset with myself for being overly emotional, misunderstood. I have been dragging a "huge" amount of baggage round with me for way too long. I look after others, quite forgetting myself, agree to do things I don't want to do and put people on these idealistic pedastals. I feel as though I am not living out my true "purpose" and just because I feel I can read minds and people I kind of expect others to do the same with me. My communication can be good but I spend such a lot of my time "holding back" so as not to hurt others...
All this stuff has literally been KILLING me on the inside - I'm ok for a while, then I reach exhaustion point (a couple of times a year) and fall into my well of misery feeling "nobody loves me, everybody hates me" and wallow in this woe is me sort of place - then I kind of ping back to life again... Of course everybody I have rejected during my self absorbed stage remembers and it is sometimes impossible to recover as they wait for the next "episode" to take effect....
Thanks for making me feel a lot less insane! Now I can accept and start to work through this!