Shhhhhh-be very quiet so the entps dont hear..... I am going to whisper this given you placed the thread in their section....
(I kinda know how you feel)
Yeah their brains all exploded anyways but you are an istj who used to be an enfp, I am an enfp, so I think this sorta may be okay....but I could be wrong...so you can be offended and I will apologize in advance.
When I was a kid I hid behind an INFJ shadow-but this isnt like an INFJ-it is more just a blank Fe wall to keep people out.
I just never felt anything, happy, sad, excitement, enthusiasm-just empty and dull. I felt sort of stable, but very isolated and removed from other people. It was like I was an enfp-but it was all stuck inside my head isolated from everyone. I did not care at all what other thought, I did not care what they did. I did not need to interact with them.
I didnt even feel lonely oddly enough-just a content isolation. If anything mild annoyance now and then.
as someone so incisively put it, bubble sex