Well, I'm an ENFP, and for those days I was analysing some facts of my life principally about behavior, maturation of functions (and personal maturation, for sure) etc. So, I want to brainstorm and see if some ENFP's can relate.
Firstly, the first function that I primarily developed was for sure iNtuition. As a child, I was an ingenious, curious, imaginative, "intellectual", criative and communicative child. I didn't display too much Feeling at this time, what made me socially retarded, completely zany and misunderstood by other children who, at an early age was preoccupied with traditional child behavior (principally related with gender, for example, girls of my age at this time liked to play with dolls and so on, me, by the other side, was the girl with more male friends, who liked to engage in adventure games, imaginative things etc... when alone, I liked to imagine myself as the heroin of fairytales, such as Pocahontas, Ariel, Belle etc, and create my world of fantasy and play with it), and the girl that loved to read and acquire knowledge of all types, that had plenty of ideas and projects, but never finished what I started (things that I have till today). I wasn't very sociable, although very communicative, because of my lunatic nature.
When I was 8, my first brother was born, then I felt like I had lost my title of Queen of the Family, and went up in a phase of extreme jealousy and stress. As a result, I developed OCD (maybe because of the shadow that appear in extreme stress? I seemed like an obsessive ISTJ, btw). When I was 10, I got better, and came back to the traditional Ne-dom child, and at this time, very sociable, basically the class clown.
But, when I was 12-13, started the most painful phase of my life. I personally think it was because of the development of Fi. As a child, I already showed a very authentic behavior, but at this age, that is when I think my real Fi was born, it came up in a very immature, unhealthy and blunt thing. And this plus my need of self-expression and outspoken nature, was like a bomb that made people runaway from me. Because of this, I started a time of self-isolation, and self-reflection, that made me suffer A LOT. I needed people to feel happy, and to socialize and have friends, but my blunt behavior and aggressivity in self-expression to affirm my values to society was scary. At my school I suffered bullying what helped me to fall in depression and start a hateful time. I seemed like a hateful INFP, and very dogmatic about my own values.
At 16, things got better. With my Fi finally matured, I knew how to handle this and apply it correctly. I was able to express myself freely, but not in a way that seemed offensive. People called me a very inspiring and funny person, what made me feel totally happy. Now, I consider myself a healthy ENFP, with a well developed Fi and so on.
Oh, my God! I told the story of my life! Sorry if I appeared narcissistic, (and for my grammar mistakes, English isn't my first language). But I want to know if my fellow ENFP's can relate or went through similar situations.
Firstly, the first function that I primarily developed was for sure iNtuition. As a child, I was an ingenious, curious, imaginative, "intellectual", criative and communicative child. I didn't display too much Feeling at this time, what made me socially retarded, completely zany and misunderstood by other children who, at an early age was preoccupied with traditional child behavior (principally related with gender, for example, girls of my age at this time liked to play with dolls and so on, me, by the other side, was the girl with more male friends, who liked to engage in adventure games, imaginative things etc... when alone, I liked to imagine myself as the heroin of fairytales, such as Pocahontas, Ariel, Belle etc, and create my world of fantasy and play with it), and the girl that loved to read and acquire knowledge of all types, that had plenty of ideas and projects, but never finished what I started (things that I have till today). I wasn't very sociable, although very communicative, because of my lunatic nature.
When I was 8, my first brother was born, then I felt like I had lost my title of Queen of the Family, and went up in a phase of extreme jealousy and stress. As a result, I developed OCD (maybe because of the shadow that appear in extreme stress? I seemed like an obsessive ISTJ, btw). When I was 10, I got better, and came back to the traditional Ne-dom child, and at this time, very sociable, basically the class clown.
But, when I was 12-13, started the most painful phase of my life. I personally think it was because of the development of Fi. As a child, I already showed a very authentic behavior, but at this age, that is when I think my real Fi was born, it came up in a very immature, unhealthy and blunt thing. And this plus my need of self-expression and outspoken nature, was like a bomb that made people runaway from me. Because of this, I started a time of self-isolation, and self-reflection, that made me suffer A LOT. I needed people to feel happy, and to socialize and have friends, but my blunt behavior and aggressivity in self-expression to affirm my values to society was scary. At my school I suffered bullying what helped me to fall in depression and start a hateful time. I seemed like a hateful INFP, and very dogmatic about my own values.
At 16, things got better. With my Fi finally matured, I knew how to handle this and apply it correctly. I was able to express myself freely, but not in a way that seemed offensive. People called me a very inspiring and funny person, what made me feel totally happy. Now, I consider myself a healthy ENFP, with a well developed Fi and so on.
Oh, my God! I told the story of my life! Sorry if I appeared narcissistic, (and for my grammar mistakes, English isn't my first language). But I want to know if my fellow ENFP's can relate or went through similar situations.