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It doesn't sound weird, but interesting. I'm really curious about how you're thinking on this one, so... why?
I sometimes don't like to think about the purposeless of it. I can find it difficult to create value for my own existence. There may be some objective, larger "reason" for the existence of life forms, but as our own comprehension is concerned, there is really nothing to it other than the mechanical function of passing on traits to the next generation, to face the trials and tribulations of natural selection. We're just puppets for this passage really, but what I dislike most is: to what end? Why bother at all? But the reality is that questioning and reasoning is probably an entirely subjective trait that we have been given simply to survive. The universe doesn't need reason. It doesn't need to ask anything - why or how - it simply is. It is humans that ask and need the answers, except it has got to the stage where there aren't any, objectively speaking; it's simply an advanced development of natural curiosity that all animals are ingrained with. And humans seem to be under the illusion that we're important (at least, a lot of them do). Then we'll become extinct, and what of it? Absolutely nothing.
As you probably gather, I've been in existential crises before (like most people here, I'm willing to bet). It'll probably come back again sometime. I'm comfortable with the above, but sometimes I still have to sit and wonder: why bother at all?
Some of my thoughts; I hope it has answered your question.
That was interesting to read. I see a part of you being so future oriented in your thinking as a result of Te and Ni though. ENTJs in particular are quite the future planners, always thinking of the next step or move to make to finalize their plan. Inferior Fi could also explain your social anxiety since inferior Fi types often feel they got difficulties dealing with their personal emotions and how to relate to other people falling victim to the feeling that they are incapable of showing or feeling say, genuine empathy on the one hand, but on the other feeling so much sympathy/empathy that they don't know how to deal with it.
Perhaps I have overemphasized my planning somehow. I am utterly future orientated, but my planning isn’t completely step-by-step, often times it’s merely an outline. That said, when I read up about inferior Fi, it did seem quite plausible. It could be a cause of anxiety, but you don’t really hear of many shy, anxious ENTJs, do you (sorry to generalise here)? Usually they’re very confident and almost aggressive in their behaviour.
The problem I have with seeing you as a 7 core is that you don't seem to put so much steam in possibilities as much as I see you planning the next step. 7s can be very visionary and great planners but their thinking is ultimately much more scatter-minded compared to yours. Your thinking is more focused and in particular goal oriented.
I still really don’t think 7 is that high up to be honest.
When you think about the future, what are you thinking about? Also, what would you say is your current mental health level? Some things you wrote seem to suggest not that great. Did you consider if you are currently disintegrated?
Practically everything including my goals, thinking up new creative projects, advances in science and technology, the universe, humans in general etc.
And no, my health isn’t currently that good at all. I’m in a sort of rut where I cannot make progress with much of anything. I was going to mention that I mayb be disintegrated, but I must have forgotten. It could also be possibly why I thought INFJ at first (heightened tert-Fi).
Also if you don't mind asking but why do you think you're pathetic? Does it relate to a sense of weakness and if so, what kind of? Does this extend to the rest of humanity as well?
Yes, a sense of weakness. I hate having to bring up social situations so often, but it is usually during these that my absolute incompetence in being able to express myself and behave naturally is exposed, and that causes me to feel that way. No, it doesn’t extend to the rest of humanity. I’m not a misanthrope, even though I do find a large proportion of people annoying, and I do like people in general. (How can one automatically hate an entire species, without meeting barely any of them?)