Lia_kat
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Hi, everyone.
I've been debating whether to post this for weeks. I'm in a difficult period in my life at the moment and don't quite know how to express everything I'm feeling but I'll try my best. And if any of you have advice, I would truly appreciate it. This may be a long-ish post...
I'm lost. I feel like I'm in limbo and don't know which direction to take. I've always been one to learn things on my own and have a multitude of interests. I left college because I could not decide on what to focus on. I initially started with Psychology since human behavior has always fascinated me but after moving away from home and taking a long hiatus to focus on myself, I never went back. I then decided that the time I wanted to stay in school (not much) would not make a Psych degree worth it. Years have passed by and I still don't know. I don't necessarily want a college degree if I don't have to get one though. I work in healthcare at the moment and have worked my way up to management with experience alone, but the stress is too much for me (some of you are probably familiar with this if you've read my other thread) and I'm looking to get out. I just don't know if I should stay in healthcare with my current employer -- good security and benefits -- and transfer to another office (who knows what would happen then? I've done that once already with not so good an outcome) or just switch completely and find a new job somewhere else...start new...
I've also thought about going back and maybe completing some sort of degree that'll help me get a job in Healthcare Technology/IT since I already have all that experience as a jumping off point but I don't know if I'll like it since I have never been exposed to it. I don't want to waste my time + money on something I'll regret later. This is how I feel about pretty much everything I've thought of studying...
I also would love to be self-employed and maybe do something with art or writing.. something that can help me be my own boss. I don't have to do it full time but I would love if it can at least help me so that I would only need a part-time job (even if it's my current one). The question is what? I love art and have tried many different mediums... painting, photography, collages, etc. Only thing I have not tried is pottery and clay which I think I would like a lot but have to try it out. Nothing really speaks to me. I think I'm pretty good with photos and collages but not enough that I could make money with it. I'm thinking of selling my art and showing it at local art fairs so we'll see how that goes. Poetry is another hobby of mine. I've received positive feedback on it and thinking of writing a chapbook (possible an e-book?) but have no poetry published yet. Special fx makeup is an additional interest of mine I want to look into and may have an opportunity to try firsthand this year during Halloween, and I would absolutely love to get in the haunt industry somehow but I don't even know where to begin and it's very specific.
In the meantime, time passes by and I'm here just going through the motions and nursing this hollowness. It's like I'm in a dark tunnel and I can't find the light.
It's a horrible feeling, all of this. I know I'm not suppose to have everything figured out at twenty-seven but I want to at least have some direction, something to look forward to.
I've been debating whether to post this for weeks. I'm in a difficult period in my life at the moment and don't quite know how to express everything I'm feeling but I'll try my best. And if any of you have advice, I would truly appreciate it. This may be a long-ish post...
I'm lost. I feel like I'm in limbo and don't know which direction to take. I've always been one to learn things on my own and have a multitude of interests. I left college because I could not decide on what to focus on. I initially started with Psychology since human behavior has always fascinated me but after moving away from home and taking a long hiatus to focus on myself, I never went back. I then decided that the time I wanted to stay in school (not much) would not make a Psych degree worth it. Years have passed by and I still don't know. I don't necessarily want a college degree if I don't have to get one though. I work in healthcare at the moment and have worked my way up to management with experience alone, but the stress is too much for me (some of you are probably familiar with this if you've read my other thread) and I'm looking to get out. I just don't know if I should stay in healthcare with my current employer -- good security and benefits -- and transfer to another office (who knows what would happen then? I've done that once already with not so good an outcome) or just switch completely and find a new job somewhere else...start new...
I've also thought about going back and maybe completing some sort of degree that'll help me get a job in Healthcare Technology/IT since I already have all that experience as a jumping off point but I don't know if I'll like it since I have never been exposed to it. I don't want to waste my time + money on something I'll regret later. This is how I feel about pretty much everything I've thought of studying...
I also would love to be self-employed and maybe do something with art or writing.. something that can help me be my own boss. I don't have to do it full time but I would love if it can at least help me so that I would only need a part-time job (even if it's my current one). The question is what? I love art and have tried many different mediums... painting, photography, collages, etc. Only thing I have not tried is pottery and clay which I think I would like a lot but have to try it out. Nothing really speaks to me. I think I'm pretty good with photos and collages but not enough that I could make money with it. I'm thinking of selling my art and showing it at local art fairs so we'll see how that goes. Poetry is another hobby of mine. I've received positive feedback on it and thinking of writing a chapbook (possible an e-book?) but have no poetry published yet. Special fx makeup is an additional interest of mine I want to look into and may have an opportunity to try firsthand this year during Halloween, and I would absolutely love to get in the haunt industry somehow but I don't even know where to begin and it's very specific.
In the meantime, time passes by and I'm here just going through the motions and nursing this hollowness. It's like I'm in a dark tunnel and I can't find the light.
It's a horrible feeling, all of this. I know I'm not suppose to have everything figured out at twenty-seven but I want to at least have some direction, something to look forward to.