I can't decide on a title... Just please read...

[Lalese]

This is my life...
What is my life...
Who am I...
What do I do...
What do I want...
What is it that drives me...
What is the property of my soul...
What... Am... I...

Mabey it's best if I just start from the beginning...
Observe my actions from the beginning.
From nothingness to something.

Music drives me.
What else?
That I'm sure of...
It's depressing that my mind is so filled with the details
that seeing the bigger picture is a challenge.
The final output of the millions of inputs escapes me
and it drives me crazy to no end.

The answers to simple questions get lost in the details and the chaos of my mind.
I JUST DON"T KNOW and it drives me MAD. I NEED ANSWERS NOW! I NEED HOPE! I need... want peace of mind...

Please help me...

 

[Hermit of the Forest]

If you need hope, the only real answer is God. The Bible says:

“But this I call to mind,
and therefore I have hope:
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
“The Lord is my portion,” says my soul,
“therefore I will hope in him.”
The Lord is good to those who wait for him,
to the soul who seeks him.”

— Lamentations 3:21-25