Thanks you. But at the short time I've been gone, I've done some research and analysis. You need no further doubts, analysis or replies — I now am certain of what type I am.
Here's the link for my enneagram questionnaire for anyone passing by.
http://www.typologycentral.com/forums/what-s-my-type-/91646-round-2-type-enneagram-clang-clang.html
Below is a really long reply of why I reached the conclusions of what type I am — reading it or not is your choice.
But really, no one believes I'm an introvert? When I said I was lively, I meant a ratio of spending about an hour or at most 2 of energetic talking than spending the rest of the whole day barely talking. When I go home, it's mostly spent alone on most days. I spend time thinking of conversations in my head less because I want to spend time with people than I just enjoy the process of explaining ideas — even if it's someone imaginary. And I notice a pretty obvious quieting as I speak — starting out excitable but gradually getting more and more calm and softspoken.
Maybe I'm just some odd introvert who likes being gregarious at times. Really, it exhausts me. But I prefer it that way.
I didn't realize you'd guys type me by my style of writing. And really — my style of writing is dependent on the environment and its purpose, or if I switch to another one without knowing how this place is like, I go with the most recent one. The most recent places I've been during this writing was near a bunch of lively jokers and the one before happened to be trying to explore my emotions I didn't understand with a really softhearted person. But in fact, the most natural one I use is often much more calmer, somewhat more formal and thoughtful. The one I'm using now. Also I tend to adapt this way without consciously realizing at times — ahaha. . . Sorry for the trouble.
Another factor is that these questions seem to mimic situations in everyday life for most people. And while it's true that I'd do a lot of things in there that way — it's also very likely that I won't choose to be in many of those situations in the first place. I'd likely won't be in an actual party that crowded, ever bother to help plan a wedding, or until later on, won't care much to buy a car causing the goal of this questionnaire to be . . . likely unsuccessful. And because of its structure — the mentions of activities I actually do regularly is barely accounted upon. But some would be what I'd do. — when I wanted to see the reasoning of the other person that irked me — I wanted to see if their perspective was accurate.
I didn't bother to point out my reasoning because I didn't really have to remember it at those times. Remembering my emotions is what allows me to monitor if they're in sync with the reasoning I wanted. I know what's logical to do but to be motivated for what's logical — I have to constantly control my thoughts to affect my emotions to affect my actions. And if I couldn't control them even with that effort — then all I could do was sit and watch them — to monitor if it might get worse. The most illogical thing to emotional control would be to remind myself how I wanted them to be in sync with what I logically wanted — that would frustrate me even more.
And when I said the feeling parts of my depression was the hardest and slowest ones — that also meant other parts of my depression was easier. Especially counting following through with concrete details and doing repetitive actions — starting out disorganized and even liking it later on. If ENFP's inferior function is Si, then how could that be easier? Another thing to realize is that my depression began as a preteen and when I talk about valuing logic and truth even before that at such a young age (age 10 and below) that suggests something more than just developed Te, is it? Another was how much I struggled with Ne as a preteen — I kept overthinking and getting scared of things when I confronted something novel — If Ne is supposed to be first one to develop, then why this?
I've done a lot of other research and analysis in my time alone — and there's too much to put it all here. I guess I only reached this conclusion so fast because I had an obsession with analyzing my past even before typology — you see, I didn't want to repeat my horrible past so I made sure to analyze the factors of why it happened and why I succeeded. Which is another odd thing for a supposedly inferior Si user to be able to do — I remember an incredible number of details of what happened in the past way way way too much.
Thank you for reading and your time. Have a good day.
