1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
Freedom, expression, love, kindness, compassion, intensity, passion, connection, fun, excitment, new experiences.
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
I used to want to be famous when I was younger, I want to have a big & beautiful house of my own that I can decorate, I'd like to have a sports car, be a mom, travel the world, own my own restaurant, have my own clothing line, write a book, create my own TV show/movie/play, start my own charity, & learn how to play a couple more instruments.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
I don't want to be bored with life. I don't want to feel stuck in a dead end repetitive job. I don't want to be in a rut. I don't want to be miserable or alone.
I'm strongly against any kind of abuse, & I believe in encouragement & letting people be themselves without putting too many restraints on them.
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
Not being good enough. Not being able to make it out in the real world by myself. Not acheiving enough with my life. Being consumed with stress.
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
As insightful, strong willed, caring, fun, funny laid back, truthful & honest, smart, bubbly, cheerful, generous.
Wise, sweet, sensitive, soulful, tough, humorous, giddy, thoughtful, giving, fun, exciting, deep, different, & hippie-ish.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
When I have a lot of fun activities going on, when I'm around good people that bring out the real me, when I look good (make-up, hair, clothes), when I'm peaceful & not worrying about anything, when I'm helping other people with their problems & giving advice.
Not having anything to do, having no good friends around, being around negative people, having loads of work to do & being so far behind it's impossibly to catch up, looking like a mess.
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
a) Usually when I'm angry I get somewhat violent, I'll even throw things when I'm really angry. Holding in things for too long is what usually causes this.
b) I get shame from my poor choices. If I feel really embarrassed, I'll just lay in bed & not want to do anything. It's like I never want to have to face people again.
c) When I get really nervous I actually physically shake. There's a lot of different things that bring out my anxiety, it's hard to explain.
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
a) Feeling trapped, being overwhelmed, & having to deal with negative people makes me stressed. I'll act out, try to distract myself, or just completely give up & retreat.
b) I'll be happy if it's good change & upset if it's bad change. That's really it.
c) I usually just tell people off if they try to start arguments or fights with me or my friends/family.
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
a) I'm pretty anti-authoritative. I don't naturally give people respect. They have to respect me first before I can respect them.
b) It'd be great to be a powerful person, but I don't like when people use power over people in a bad way or abuse their position.
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
I think there's a lot of people in need, & people should try to help & be tolerant towards people & try to make the world a better place. Life is short, so it should be lived to the fullest.
I'm just trying to see how consistent my scores are on different ones.
This is frustrating.
(I'm an Si type underneath it all too - I feel a connection to that part of myself coming from you)
