I'm stuck in the not-being-sure-about-my-type-anymore loop. Again.
Not that I've ever been so sure anyway.
Do you think I'm an ISTJ?
1. As a kid I grew up in a catholic environment (catholic parents, catholic friends, catholic teachers, catholic classmates, catholic school, catholic everything) and thought that there was one God, that baby Jesus brought you Christmas presents and that good people went to heaven when they died, and I didn't question it because in my short existence I'd never met anyone who thought differently, and my mind didn't even entertain the idea that it was possible to think differently. That's what everyone told me, just like they told me that the grass is green and that people in Australia don't fall off the planet because of gravity. It was obvious, it made sense.
2. I can't stand bad smells, don't like non HD images (especially when used as desktop backgrounds), and I'd rather not watch a movie than watch it in 360p.
3. I'm adaptable, but I don't actively seek change (I'd be happy if someone changed things for me, but I'm too lazy to do it myself). I noticed that on the bus I always sit in the same seat without thinking about it. When I do unimportant things, I'm on autopilot. My brain works like the cache of a web browser: when I got on a bus for the first time, I memorized the act of walking towards x seat and sitting on it, so now every time I get on a bus I automatically sit on that x seat, like a browser loads a cached page without downloading it again from the server (my conscious mind). If I wanted to change from x to z, I'd have to think "now I'll change from x to z", but sticking with x feels more natural.
4. Sometimes I wish I could stand up for people who are being humiliated for no reason, or people I sympathize with, but I never do. Sometimes I can't even stand up for myself.
5. I remember things from my past but it's like they didn't really happen to me, like a dream. My memories feel strange.
6. In kindergarten at midday everyone would go to this big room and play, but usually I stayed with the teachers on the teachers' bench with my hands on my ears. I was overwhelmed by all the noise and the screaming and children running around so fast (they were friggin' barbarians). UGH. Then for the rest of the day I would play alone (mostly) and always obey the teacher, and judge negatively those who didn't (my god I was a little nazi). Si-Te? I'm very different now, or at least I think I am, but some people who claim to be experts say it's impossible to go from one type to another (especially if it means changing all the functions). I don't know if I believe them though. Probably not.
7. When I was five I hated the fact that I could see the veins in my wrist, and since my mother had pale skin too, I thought it was her fault because I had inherited it from her. So, I decided that I would become the queen of the universe and forbid people with this kind of "flaw" to ever have children. Ehm, I was kinda close-minded.
I identify with Ti, but what if I use Te?
What if Si>Se?
What if- NO PLEASE STAHP