People of enneatype Six are essentially insecure…as though life has never quite provided them with a proper footing, as though there existed nothing, either internally or externally, which could serve as a solid foundation. The type Six fixation is therefore deeply and fundamentally existential, and there exists at the core of enneatype Six a tight knot of anxiety, an essential disquietude, and a deep seated desire to find something or someone stable enough in which to place some trust. Given this essential dynamic, it is not surprising therefore to find that Sixes have core issues centering around the contrast between faith and scepticism, trust and distrust, and the legitimate exercise of authority versus the abuse and misuse of power. All Sixes share these core issues, but they respond to them in quite a wide variety of ways, making type Six the most variegated of all the enneatypes and the most difficult by far to describe with specificity.
While it's true that I'm often anxious and may even see things as emptiness, I find myself having a solid foundantion that I base all and everything I believe in upon. Therefore in contrary to what's written down here I've a proper footing. While I've to say that I during some scenarios have considered possibilities outside of my faith, not with the intention to disbelieve my faith, but rather said theories just for the sake of making up a theory, one that I necessairly don't even believe in, I can't say I've doubted my faith. The same comes to trust and distrust: In fact, I'm more often too trusting than distrusting, making me an easy target for my friends' to fool. but I may be overly distrusting when it comes to trusting someone's sincerity and motives. I don't even need to go as far as that, even when someone compliments me, I at times consider the option of sarcasm or sweet-talk.
Sixes are essentially thinking types and tend to utilize their minds in their attempt to find a solid foundation. Sixes are looking for something in which to believe or someone in whom they can place their trust. At a level which barely reaches consciousness, Sixes feel that if they can find “one sure thing,” they can quiet their restlessness, and achieve some semblance of much needed “peace of mind.” This desire for some solidity, combined with their general suspiciousness, gives rise to a complicated relationship to those they view as authorities. The side of the Six which is looking for something to believe in, is often very susceptible to the temptation to turn authority over to an external source, whether it be in the form of an individual or a creed. But the Six’s tendency towards distrust and suspicion works against any sort of faith in authority and often even presents as anti-authoritarianism. Thus, two opposite pulls exist side by side in the personality of enneatype Six, and will assume different proportions in different individuals, frequently alternating in the same individual.
I'm sincerely a thinking type, but I do not search for someone who I can put all my trust into. That's something I independantly cope with and doesn't concern anyone else.
Some Sixes never find a system or an authority which satisfies their questioning nature. These tend to root themselves in more personal loyalties – loyalties to family, especially children, or to their friends or causes. Sixes, in general, tend to form strong personal bonds. One of the more appealing aspects of the type Six personality is the trueness they can show to those they love. Feeling essentially unsure themselves, they find some comfort in being true to others, in being steadfast. Sixes can show real perseverance when it comes to their personal relationships and they can give of themselves selflessly – without expectation of reward and with little need of special recognition. The loyalty of type Six is something of a two edged sword however, as Sixes are sometimes prone to stand by a friend, partner, job or cause long after it is time to move on.
Assuming Religion is my belief (Which as stated about, is my foundantion for everything I wish to believe in) I've found it. "Loyalty" is a very difficult word. Without a good reason I'd never turn my back on someone first, that comes natural to me. But I'm not loyal as in submitting my very being, in contrary I'm loyal to what I consider to be right and I act upon that. I'm also the kind of person who wouldn't be blackmailed by anything, not even if my Family were threatened. Therefore, "Loyalty to blood-ties" isn't applying to me. In fact I consider people using "Blood ties" as an arguement to unjustly defend someone who doesn't deserve to be defended ridiculous. Practical example would be when I was in an arguement with someone, and from my subjective point of view I was clearly in the right, then all of sudden the big brother of that guy appeared and said "Why do you trouble my brother? You make it my problem now."
What's true however is my truness that I show people, it's genuine. I do not put up a facade to be someone who I'm not (Therefore I can't say I'm an unsure person, while I've insecuries I'm sure of who I am). In fact I despise people putting up a facade and just going wit the flow because they're too afraid to stand their ground. However, I do rarely show any aspect of my depth and insight to people, for as stated in one of the first posts, I'd come over as an oddball. I'd also not give of myself selflessly, in fact I'd always consider myself first if what I'm doing is in tune with my capability, values etc.
It is typically at a quite young age then, in response to the illegitimate or insensitive exercise of authority, that Sixes adopt their fundamental strategy for dealing with their underlying anxieties and for handling imbalanced power relationships. Some Sixes adopt a basically phobic approach. Phobic Sixes are generally compliant, affiliative and cooperative. They strive to avoid undue attention and to defuse tension by appearing to be “harmless.” They thereby strive to avoid triggering aggression in others. Other Sixes adopt the opposite strategy of dealing with anxieties and become counterphobic, essentially taking a defiant stand against whomever or whatever they find threatening. This is the Six who takes on authority or who adopts a dare devil attitude towards physical danger. Counterphobic Sixes can be aggressive, and frequently adopt a rebellious or anti-authoritarian demeanor. Such Sixes are often unaware of the fear which motivates their actions. For counterphobic Sixes, the inner tension of living with their anxiety is greater than the fear of any external threat they might be facing, so they adopt an oppositional attitude and throw themselves into action. This approach sometimes succeeds in obscuring from the counterphobic Six’s line of vision the fear which is actually at the root of their behavior. Consequently, counterphobic Sixes frequently deny being anxious. Interestingly, some phobic Sixes are also unaware of their underlying anxiety, an anxiety which is often readily apparent to others. Because anxiety serves as the backdrop to all their emotional states, some Sixes are unaware of its existence, as they have nothing with which to contrast it.
I'm not a phobic E-6, that's for certain. I'm neither of the three following: compliant, affiliative and cooperative. On the same time I'm not especially rebellious or aggressive either, nor do I fear anxiety more than physical danger.
There are many Sixes who adopt neither an exclusively phobic nor counterphobic approach. Such Sixes switch modes, so to speak, depending on the amount of stress they are experiencing.
This could very well be me, assuming I'm an E-6.
According to A. H. Almaas, the type Six personality most directly experiences and suffers from a loss of “basic trust” in the goodness of the universe. This loss of basic trust is the very condition of fallen existence, and thus attaches to all of the fixations, but Sixes experience it at the very core of their consciousness. And it is this most basic and fundamental emotion which must be dealt with directly and defeated if the Six is to achieve true liberation. It is, like the journeys of all the enneatypes, a true “hero’s journey.”
Wouldn't suffering from a loss of "basic trust" in the goodness of the universe be synonymous to being a cynical person? As I've written elsewhere I'm more often too trusting when it comes to the intention than I am distrusting. But then again this varies very well depending on the peron in question, and what kind of thing that is the topic. Power for example, then I'm more often too distrusting than trusting.
While I do to a certain extenth find that most people are Unintelligent or mean, and I'm very good at spotting those and thus avoids them: I yet haven't began to see the world the same way as a cynical person does.
Other Sixes however, live a life of integrity. They may harbor fears and anxieties but nevertheless manifest courage by refusing to succumb to them. From an external perspective they well may seem unexceptional, but, insofar as they refuse the easy answer and do not give way to the reactive response, they demonstrate a quiet victory over their inner demons. Such Sixes develop a kind of strength to which others instinctively turn in times of difficulty. They can be counted on to follow through and to demonstrate leadership when a real danger threatens as they have successfully conquered so many imaginary ones. Having developed some degree of self-mastery, they can master externals as well. They can be counted on. They rise to the occasion. There are also some few Sixes who achieve a true liberation. These Sixes almost invariably manifest a feeling of solidarity with their kinfolk – and they consider virtually everyone to be kin.
A liberated Six has a kind of human heartedness which is truly inspirational, a subtle greatness which is thinly disguised by their modesty.
Everything here except the bolded part seems to apply well to me.