It has been nearly a month since my second attempt at getting typed in this forum. The first result (as stated by Yeghor, according to his system) was ENTJ. The second was INFJ. I won't say that it is unlikely either of the aforementioned types are my own, but it would be best if I avoided questionnaires, as many of the questions are unanswerable in my present condition. Therefore, I will write open prompt.
First and foremost, I am sure that despite the protests of my mother (who is obsessed with the idea that everyone is normal, except for her) I have a neurotypical brain. Whether I have OCD, aspergers, ADHD or something entirely different, such as a personality disorder, is a mystery to me. All I understand is that therapists are quacks and a serotonin deficiency is not the issue (the evidence that a lack of serotonin is linked, and not the singular cause of depression, anxiety, and paranoia is overwhelming).
Next, I should disclose the results of MBTI tests. Honestly, I've taken so many over the past 18 months that they cannot be listed (plus I did not bother to save the data). Usually the result is INXX, moderately followed by ISXP, seldomly followed by ENTX.
Since July of 2013 (when I completed my final course to receive my AA degree) I've been stuck in a stasis. I declined to pursue a bachelors as the cost/loan debt and student to building ratio would cause me great instability. For these 12+ months I've done nothing productive, lethargy grabbed a hold of my ankles and dragged me into an abyss of depression and boredom. The catch is that I'm an unhealthy introvert; the idea of friendship makes me feel uneasy. I enjoy solitary activities and detest being in large groups, loud noises, etc. It has been decided that I will attend a community college for an AS and write while I work on the side.
My personality is malleable. I can easily pick up traits, attitudes, beliefs from my favorite fictional characters. I've tried to sit like L Lawliet and eat a high sugar diet, etc. (Come to think of it my depression may have come from Shinji Ikari).
I have an idea of what I need to do and how to do it, yet I can't get motivated. I cannot find a way to schedule myself, yet I feel overwhelmed by having so many options.
I do not drink, smoke, or do drugs. I've done these things in the past but my willpower is too strong for me to have ever gotten addicted. I see now that nothing positive comes from poising myself with harmful foreign chemicals. And I realize my hypocrisy as I drink loads of coffee and am a picky eater.
It is my goal to read everything. I have a list (not made by me) which I plan on completing. It feels necessary for me to have an extremely high vocabulary and knowledge of the inner and outer workings of literature and information available.
I am not a deeply caring individual. My family is important to me, but other people are not my concern. As a matter of fact, I wish not to be bothered. This is not always the case, but I feel like acting the way my mother does with the homeless and elderly (I've typed her as ESFX) would be a feign of my true self. I do not know who I am or what I believe, but I know who I care about.
There is not much else to say. I drift in and out of reality as I float from day to day in my comatose state of laziness. If any of you have any questions to further ascertain my type, ask them.