I've been struggling trying to figure out my type lately and attempts to do research on the cognitive functions have only served to confuse me even more. Somehow I feel able to relate to all the functions, which probably means I'm just not getting it. I usually get type infp or infj when I do mbti tests online. I'm open to being any type, though!
0. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental*illness,*medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.
I'm a 17 year old girl. So I suppose my age could be an issue? Other than that, nothing that I know of.
1. Click on this link:*Flickr: Explore!*Look at the random photo for about 30 seconds. Copy and paste it here, and write about your impression of it.
The picture I chose depicted some green fields at sunset (or maybe sunrise?)
It almost looked like a painting. The way the light cast itself on the hills was especially breathtaking. It had a very serene look to it that made me feel very fuzzy inside.
2. You are with a group of people in a car, heading to a different town to see your favorite band/artist/musician. Suddenly, the car breaks down for an unknown reason in the middle of nowhere. What are your initial thoughts? What are your outward reactions?
At first, a small part of me would probably be a tiny bit relieved since I find events like concerts exhausting. But if I truly were looking forward to it, I would probably feel irritated and apprehensive.
Outwardly, I think I would try to remain calm and keep the mood light, since it just becomes harder to come up with a solution if everyone's freaking out.
3. You somehow make it to the concert. The driver wants to go to the afterparty that was announced (and assure you they won't drink so they can drive back later). How do you feel about this party? What do you do?
I would be very unhappy, and probably say so to the driver. Going to a concert would already have tired me out, going to a party straight afterwards would be overwhelming. If I don't get time to process impressions and things that I've experienced during the day in peace, I become snappy and withdrawn and that's not how I want my friends to see me.
I would probably end up suggesting having a vote. If a majority of the group wants to party, we'll go to the party. If most people just wants to go home, we'll go home.
4. On the drive back, your friends are talking. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward reaction? What do you outwardly say?
It depends on how close we are and how big the 'clash' is.
Unless it's one of my very, very close friends who I'm comfortable calling out, I probably wouldn't say anything, mostly because we would be in an enclosed space and I can get very worked up once I get started. If it would spiral out of control, none of us would be able to take a 'time out' to cool off.
If it's something I feel strongly about (and I do feel strongly about a lot of things) I would almost certainly be fuming on the inside, though. I would probably show my anger by giving the person my 'death glare' and be snappy with them for a while afterwards, just so they know I'm angry about what they said. Of course, this is a really childish and ineffective way to deal with things, since they might not understand what they said to set me off, but it's the only way I feel like I can get out my anger without direct confrontation.
5. What would you do if you actually saw/experienced something that clashes with your previous beliefs, experiences, and habits?
I've always given my beliefs 'the benefit of the doubt', so to speak. I feel so strongly about them, I usually have a hard time accepting that they might be wrong.
I don't think I would dismiss it entirely, though. It could be a valuable 'puzzle piece' if I do feel the need to reevaluate what I think at some point.
6. What are some of your most important values? How did you come about determining them? How can they change?
No matter how cliché it sounds: Kindness and understanding.
In general people being nasty to others, especially to individuals and groups who are already damaged and/or vulnerable (I have a serious thing for underdogs) enrages me. I would say that seeing that is wrong is just simple human decency, but then I look at how some people act and I'm not so sure.
I can't really say how my beliefs change. It's such a fluid process I can't really detect it when it's happening.
7. a) What about your personality most distinguishes you from everyone else? b) If you could change one thing about you personality, what would it be? Why?
a) I'm incapable of getting bored. Whenever I'm in a situation others would find excruciatingly boring I just sink into 'fantasy-land', and stay there until something or someone snaps me out of it.
b) I want to be a calmer person. I wish I could have arguments and emotional conversations with my friends without it ending with me bawling my eyes out. I cry when I'm angry, frustrated, sad, happy. I always tear up.
8. How do you treat hunches or gut feelings? In what situations are they most often triggered?
I'm weary of them. To me, acting on a hunch is a leap of faith. It can either go painfully wrong or wonderfully right. To be honest, I feel like my hunches are wrong more often then they're right, which is discouraging.
My hunches are usually triggered in social situations. I'll get the feeling that 'oh, this person wants someone to talk with' or 'that person is angry with me and I should probably leave them alone'. It comes up a lot when I first meet someone. I'll have a feeling about whether I'm going to like this person or not, and that first impression always sticks with me for a very, very long time.
9. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?
a) Reading, listening to music, sleeping, playing video games and being alone.
b) Socializing and analyzing things (I'll end up analyzing something over and over. Come to a conclusion. Doubt that conclusion. Rinse and repeat until I'm exhausted)
10. What do you repress about your outward behavior or internal thought process when around others? Why?
Balancing standing up for myself and sparing the feelings of others can be difficult. I don't want others to feel stupid or bad when I don't think they meant to hurt me. So sometimes I'll repress that anger. This means I'll sometimes end up taking abuse until I suddenly just decide that enough is enough and I cut that person out of my life. (Or at least I tell myself I'm going to cut them out but I often end up being too much of a wuss to actually do it)
I hate thinking of myself as mean or unfair, so I always feel incredibly guilty when I think something nasty about someone. I push away those thoughts, more for my sake than others. They don't fit the image of who I want to be.