Oh I'm no tactile learner believe me.
Lectures or films help me learn better than any other method, academically speaking or not. Anyway,
I fucking hate crowds. As shameful as it is,
I've been getting panic attacks in large crowds since I was in the 7th grade. They make me feel like some kind of faceless nobody. One on one communication is where I thrive, even though I also, not proudly but truly, have developed some somewhat misanthropic leanings since my boyhood. This is mainly due to some spiritual dilemmas I've been through, ya know, the kind that make a "spiritual dilemma" an illusionary concept and reduces the human experience to a matter of the physical. Flesh and bones, farts and piss... all the beauty and wonder that we perceive in one another is fleeting, usually corrupted eventually, and entirely dependent upon rules of nature that seem so opposite of how we "spiritual", for lack of a better word, creatures should be governed. It's disturbing...so yeah you can see how that deters me from avoiding anxiety in crowds. Plus the body heat...oh god the sweaty gas chambers...anyway I'm off track..what was you next question? Oh, right. Rules or possibilities. You see, to me the two have little in common. Rules are possibilities realized. Some are just others are not, some are better than further possibilities where as others are not. It's quite balanced. Now, if you would have went the more precise route and made that a question of the possible vs. the currently impossible, the latter would be the clear victor. Pondering the impossible is what keeps the suicide rate among us keyboard pecking forum browsers nice and low, right? And, yes, i am easily distracted. Hey, what was that? ....................................get it?
(that's my inquisitive face)
