Hi. So.. I'm wondering if I'm an INTP or an INFP.Or maybe something completely different.
I always test as an INTP but I have doubts about that because I'm very aware of my feelings. I feel deeply but I can logically "dissect" those feelings.For example I've been depressed for a very long time but my sadness is not irrational,I know what makes me feel this way and I know what would stop it.Knowing how to properly behave in a relationship did not come naturally to me.I don't like to gossip or small talk or talk about trivial things unless it can give me some vital information that I need.Even though I may care a lot about people I have a very hard time showing it.I despise the read-memorize-retell sort of education that is promoted in most educational systems.I strongly believe that education should have an individualistic approach and not resemble a factory line.I understand motives beyond most actions(or situations) but I don't understand people enough.I get bored very easily especially in social situations if the conversation is not stimulating enough.I simply cannot study something if it doesn't interest me,I can read for hours and all the information will go right past me but I can spend a lot of time without breaking my concentration if the subject is very interesting to me - no matter how hard the subject is.I get hurt easily but I just as easily brush it off because I don't care enough about what people say.People think I'm weird.I seem cold and aloof and often forget to smile even if I'm happy and I don't get that excited about stuff but through observing how society works I've decided to pretend to be someone a little bit different in social situations to appear more warm and caring.It works alright.I was a very imaginative child but I also loved to take apart radios and clocks to try and figure out how they work.My parents punished me for that so I didn't really pursue my passion for breaking stuff any further and instead turned to arts.I love to write and often create short movies in my head (I'm weird) but I'd be just as interested in searching for a cancer cure if anybody would lend me their high tech lab.
But they don't.
I suck at describing myself so if you need any other information to determine my type I'd gladly answer any questions.Please help me find my type.It's for a moronic but mildly entertaining university assignment that is due next week and I'm completely fucked because I have an obsession with being accurate and I just won't turn my paper in unless I find my as-close-to-reality-as-it-can-get type.