1. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions?
I am 21, I recently moved out five months, I was assaulted in a graphic way almost three months ago, I am taking prednisone, have ADD that am taking medication on, I have PTSD, and I am socially awkward.
2.You are with a group of people in a car going to a different town to see your favorite artist and suddenly the car breaks down for no reason in the middle of nowhere what are your initial thoughts? How do you outwardly react?
I would probably mentally worried that we would be stranded and I would ponder what happen. Outwardly I am unsure but I might suggest calling someone out of trying to be calm or I would behave very neurotic.
3.You somehow make it to the concert. The driver wants to go to the after party that was announced. How do you feel about the party? What do you do?
It would depend on how much I knew about the party in advance and what it is about. Typically I do not like going to parties as it seems boring to me and also that I do not drink. I would go only to probably find a potential relationship but other than that I would not like to go.
4.On the way back your friends are talking. A friend makes a clam that clashes with your belief. What is your inner thoughts and what do you say?
I would be internally very offended but it also would depend on their overall intentions.. If they did not mean to be impolite I would try to politely inform them that I was offended in a subtle way but if they meant to be rude and impolite I would be less reluctant to tell them that I was offended/I would become sarcastic and very indignant. Usually I am indirect and too kind but if it bothers me enough I will be direct particularly if thy are being threatening for no reason and are.hypocritical but that is usually passive to people I fear sadly...
5.What would you do if you actually saw or experienced something that clashed against your beliefs?
I would feel highly distraught. I would either walk away in disgust trying not to express my views, attempt to understand it on a mild level, reflect/discuss it with others on what I feel about it without confronting the individual, try to talk things over , stay away from them out of fear of being like them, or (rarely) criticize the person if it something that deeply provokes me, if it involves directly someone that I know/myself or if I do not like the person and know that they are not good.
6.What are some of your most important values? how did you determine them how do they change?
I personally believe in honesty, being polite, not hurting others for no reason, not conforming to a label, not doing illegal supplements, not smoking and drinking, not behaving arrogantly, not mocking someone, that all communities should unite as one, being respectful to your parents, not cursing out your family members, not slandering others with discriminatory or prejudice remarks, being true to your religion, being loyal, being intelligent, always trying not to offend others and not trying to be unique as I believe that what makes us normal is that we are different and we should not try to be different as we already are different. I also believe that communities segregate us and sometimes makes oppression worse. And I try to determine my values based on what I feel is right, what I was taught as a christian and maybe some biased by being rejected. I suppose values could be changed by experiencing it or realize that it contradicts something that I did not know about. Its hard for me to adapt to situation where I become the insults that others have called me or if I went against them, I would be deeply guilty
7. A, What about your personality distinguish you from everyone? B, if you could change one thing what would it be?
A: My kindness, interest in poetry/arts, my desire to analyze and think about thing and also being a romantic? B I would like to be less silly at times, more competent, less jealous, less lustful, less stupid, less weird, less inexpressive during emotional events and less seen as mentally ill or unworthy.
8. How do you treat hunches or gut feelings? In what situations are they most often triggered?
Usually I tend to have in intuition about others and I tend to guess things about them and I actually am right which at times have scared people or I tend to keep my suspicion about others or about how events MAY turn out to myself. Coincidentally I usually am accurate but not always. They tend to be triggered either in dreams or based on how how someone looks or act and sometimes it is just a spontaneous guess.
9. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?
A. talking to someone that I am interested in, writing, drawing, thinking, reading thinking, going to art based events, relaxing, and I suppose making sense out of things or obtaining a muse. Mainly because I like to connect things and make my own interpretation of something and analyzing it. B. Talking to someone on the phone over a long period of time when it feels one sided and very loud, going to clubs, being alone, constantly moving around,
10. What do you repress about your outward behavior or internal thought process when around others? Why?
Anger because I know that if I express my dislike towards someone that it will cause conflict and I know that I cannot physically defend myself, being overemotional so that I can fully understand something, expressing trauma out of fear that I will change or be corrupted, being critical because I have been told that I was too judgmental and as I prefer to be polite I wanted to fix that, and my sexuality/personal views on communities for the same reason why I prefer not to be openly critical as well to avoid becoming arrogant.