You seem so so/sx to me. Totally, totally personifying it. So/sx is fiery and attachy and "spark"ing too.
Some people might remember that I identified as sx/so for a while. I think especially being a head type with a strong emotional core can make it seem like the social-and-head type combo is not deep enough or passionate enough. But all ENFPs are going to be deep and passionate on some level, it's just a matter of how much and where it manifests.
Starry was the one who pointed out to me how my directionality always goes to universals, which can be a Ne thing too but she observed (I hope I'm wording this correctly Starry) how I'd draw a feeling or principle from a one-on-one thing into a bigger-social-picture thing, and that was the first hint to me that I might not in fact be sx/so.
As it turns out for me, being Social-first was something I wasn't aware of because (much like Ne dominance) it was so "native" to me that I didn't even realize I was focusing on it. I assumed everyone processed this way - being highly aware of how people are feeling during interpersonal interactions, noticing the minute cues that people give and respond to in interpersonal interaction, being concerned about the wellbeing of all people involved (seeking to maximize each individual's comfort while minimizing overall discomfort), feeling a connection with every person I encounter, fluidly transitioning to interaction with one person to another, seeking a secure position in a group (this is probably a soc-6 thing), very easily seeing the impact of reputation, and so on. I didn't realize I was thinking about this differently than anyone else.
On the other hand, the sx-type fire has always been palpable and recognizable, the heart-yearning has always been deep and tangible, the melancholic euphoria has always been something that can "color" life beautiful and meaningful and tragic. And I have discovered that even in a relationship there is always going to be this fiery, yearning, melancholy part of me.
I guess the thing that clinches it for me is that when push comes to shove, I believe it's true that I'm Social first. I see Social thoughts and behaviors as a sort of duty (I'm sure this is a very 6 way of putting it) that I have to my fellow beings. Sexual puts beauty and life into the world, but in my mind it comes second, like I have a responsibility to Life and the world to be interconnected and to have a positive impact first and then I can delve into the magic and beauty of it all. I feel like Life and the world gifted this existence to me, and it's my responsibility to give back accordingly. It's not a burden, though, it just feels part and parcel to existence. And I feel a very instinctual (finally this term makes sense) pull towards each and every person, like I'm connected to everyone on an individual basis. It would seem more Sexual - and I long thought it was - except the pull is there with everyone, and it's more about the love inside everyone than it is about each person. It's about connecting with the universal Love within them, I think, something like that. I find it easy to interact with people (this is maybe very NF and Fi?) because I have always assumed and trusted there's a place inside them that lights up like the place inside me, and it's always been true. It's just a matter of figuring out what lights them up. Sx people light up more quickly and clearly, and for that reason they can be very appealing, but I personally also have a penchant for "cracking" the sx-lasters.
And I think it shows up in my ideals, too - one of the biggest concerns in my life right now is how my partner and my nuclear family (the people who are closest and most important to me) integrate. It absolutely spins my head to try to picture choosing one over the other, and it's a huge priority for me to have them get along. I don't necessarily need them to be BFF, but just having acceptance and at least neutrality if not positive feelings. I would struggle so much with my relationship being a constant source of distress to my parents and brother, or my family being a constant source of distress to my partner. I saw Social described once as being able to see the "mechanical wheels" of interaction, and for me that seems so accurate. It's just like you can see the ripple effect everywhere, how one thing impacts another, how one person impacts another, how one person impacts the group and how the group impacts one person and how the group impacts the group and how the group impacts other groups and how the combination of the group and the person impacts the world. It's infinite.
I need to go to work now but I could wax on about this forever. @Chanaynay let me know if any of this is helpful or if there's anything else you want me to try to speak to to get a feel of how it could manifest for strong-sx so/sx.