Hey guys. I've been having some personality typing issues.
I seem to have got several different results over the course of a couple of years.
1) What aspect of your personality made you unsure of your type?
The results I have gotten before are ISFP, INTP, INTJ, ENTP, ESFJ, ISTJ, ESFP and ENFP.
I feel on the surface as if I have adjusted in character throughout this time by external factors, like as if I kept reinventing myself to find out who I am exactly. Trouble is, I can feel fake being a certain way because I am so unsure what my personality is on a more cognitive level and that's not something I find to easily explore on my own as subconsciously I may want to be more like a certain type than I actually am psychologically. So hopefully here I can find my real type.
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why?
Some sense of belonging, preferably to people like me (like a common interest) to some degree.
Freedom and lots of interesting things to do (i.e. I wouldn't get on well living on some tiny desert island with nothing to do or stuck in some highly assertive job dealing with packing the same old items - those are some of my worst nightmares).
A career that is quite challenging but not too stressful (I can get some strong physical symptoms when stressed).
My dream career preference would be in the arts but I would like a degree of freedom for my own creativity if possible.
Friends, since I really have none after being home educated, preferably of mutual interest but who are kind and even somewhat affectionate or just good and "there", imaginative yet grounded, feeling yet stable. I am a bit judging in terms of close friends but given the chance, I don't think I would be so much with acquaintances. Agoraphobia keeps me a hermit away from any potential social life and my current town of residence isn't all too interpersonal from what I have seen and in the summer is bombarded with tourists (seaside resort).
I wouldn't mind publicity, either. I would like that to advocate my visions and support the causes that I sympathesise with. I am fair comfortable with just having some community worth/notability, however, it would make me feel like I belong.
Intellectual speaking, my goals are in getting my technological and art degrees.
I feel like I'm slipping up on the technological side of things, I seem to be losing interest in the sciences for the lack of a creative exploration complimentary to my goals within it at this stage.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way.
I felt enthusiastic, well-performing, energised, happy, driven, it felt like the world was my oyster and I would come off very optimistic and feel very adventurous, talkative and sociable. What made me feel that way was a philosophical discussion with others where I realised they agreed with my perspective on life and all the things to do thanks to this agreeance, I felt reassured and no longer a complete alien, my mind was full of ideas and possibilities that expanded the discussion and that was agreed, too. People say I can sometimes sound like a crazy professor in a eureka moment becoming energised by alk the possibilities when I get that excited. I don't socialise much so moment like that can be pretty rare to occur.
Other times I feel very ecstastic when people agree with my values but it's less energetic than mutual life philosophy in general.
4) What makes you feel inferior?
When others disagree with my worldview or try to see it as invalid (i.e. careless to my causes), use me for my sympathy and find me too imaginative and thus illogical in their mind even though it seems logical enough compared to other things to me (for example, I value creativity above formal business in terms of what I find enjoyable).
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.)
I like to be appropriate, I can, when I can, attempt to fit perfect ideals so others may value and accept me better. For example, I may compromise between appropriate self image and what I feel comfortable with and try to somewhat excel as a beginner when I try something new. However, I am also often very often quite unconscious of myself in a casual atmosphere. I like to respect other people's values socially, however I may find these incompatible, so I rather much find a group that suits me better than myself just attempting fit in. Since I experience physical symptoms from stress and anxiety, I tend to avoid decisions or groups whereby I feel socially incompatible on a value level as I am rather sensitive to other people's school of thought and values if they contradict mine enough. I don't see myself selfish in much of my decisions, if in theory someone I was close friends with really needed me I would value their needs above my own unless I absolutely mandatorily had to do something else life-saving and/or it really affected some career or course I was doing and even then I would possibly try to be excused. I'm very indecisive sometimes when buying something for someone and can feel let down if it wasn't good enough and it was reasonable for them to say so, I tend to pick what is appropriate and jumps out or what I thought they wanted (within reasonable price, of course). Also, I am pretty moral in my decisions where it can cause potential damagr, but I see the exception to the rules sometimes.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome?
It depends. Sometimes I just love brainstorming ideas on a project but often that comes to nothing more than an adventure and I go onto the next project, often half-way through the previous unless I really feel like I'm onto something really interesting. I like to match up to the best standard possible at my level if I can but can easily miss detail by focusing too much on the bigger picture or the real intricate detail. Trying my best isn't so much a superiority thing, it's more an attempt to improve skills as much a possible and gain some sense of validation as I have been treat inferior in the past by some people - being the best actually scares me, it sort of makes me think that there's no challenge anymore so I avoid subjects I find too easy often unless it's mandatory to do engage in them.
7) Describe us a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it?
Do childhood memories count? My idea of fun is very child-like, where one goes on a fantasy fuelled adventure with friends or where I'm doing something fun with those I really relate to or mutual activities I enjoy with acquaintances that relate to me in some respect (even if it's just the interest). Mind that my current social life is very low, though I'd like this to change once a few things are finally finished and out in the open.
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you? (Are you more prone to be hands on, to theorize, to memorize, etc)
I like to be hands on quite a lot, but not with domestic things so much as artistic or just fun leisurely activities. I like to theorise with others who share my doctrine of thought (i.e. progression) but I do not like to debate such matters, if I am wrong on something I like to learn in my own time or adjust the framework where it's only slightly wrong. I am not a big one on memory, I can be a fast learner on certain things and contradictory or once unbelievable realisations can depress me quite fast. I tend to choose to learn what benefits towards my inner goals or just as surface, fun knowledge (i.e. trivia, sayings, occasionally non-English words).
9) How organized do you to think of yourself as?
Well, domestically, looking around me - most things seem in place, a pile of rubbish may build up here and there but with maturity I have learnt to clean up.
I don't really do any task schedules, strict routines or store any to do lists. I kind of go on a whim, I know what I want and if I have to obey some routine I can find it a little irritating and thus I become quite rebellious, subconsciously pushing measures in place.
My tablet device is full of unfinished or unused plans and walls of philosophical hypothesis text I will probably never read. But I feel I learn from outputting these things (almost as if I am thinking out loud) and storing them in case I ever want to review this text (the text of which being largely self-inspiring reviews of potential and methods - often brainstorm-like).
10) How do you judge new ideas? You try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense or do you look for information that supports it?
I evaluate by values and if it is beneficial to my goals and if it is logical or not. I tend to accumulate ideas in my head and then think back to one I heard about and if it applies to what I am currently thinking about, it may well become a part of my vision at the time or even become an argument to some practical matter.
11) You find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself?
A bit of both, really. If I am group for an extended period of time, I start to become concerned with its people, I don't like to see someone struggling or being hurt in a group yet sometimes self-preservation kicks in and in order to prevent also joining their suffering I try to either assert this as an issue, tell the person with issues the group may not be the best place for them or I do drop my personal needs and try to support them by making acquaintance but it depends if it's my place to do so. I try not to be selfish but I am not the strongest person, myself, to be a group supporter, so to speak - especially if the person won't help themselves.
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions?
I like group discussions, one to one and the online equivalents. I am much more careful with my speaking if I feel I will be judged in the long run, though, I am pretty careful with what I say in general. I don't like to annoy others and due to my lack of social experience, I tend to let most people speak first unless I can make better judgement of how they would react. I am conflict avoidant and can easily feel embarrassed if I say the wrong thing, though I haven't always been. I try to simulate discussions in my head to help me gain a sense of appropriateness and a means of gaining interesting conversation, all else is on whim. I can be pretty slow with intellectual questions, those are the only ones that make me jump from being sociable to answering the question. I can be critical in my environment towards art and music, but that's more triggered by a loose sense of envy perhaps, as being at least somewhat of rookie in certain art forms, myself. I am anti-pessimistic and can appear annoying to some people I feel if I'm trying to make the group aura happier, I don't bash someone being upset but my everything-will-be-ok mindset can be perceived as child-like or careless, whereas I feel I just want us all to feel better and I don't mean to be selfish or anything like that.
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where are you jumping before leaping? Does action speaks more than words?
I like to know where I am leaping, though I have found myself entering ruts of not helping myself although I want to, and making commitments and realising they weren't so practical. I have many fears so I won't jump on, say, a rollercoaster because I'm pretty scared of such things, but things I am ok with I can often turn quite a blind eye but I have done this enough to start learning not to, now.
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do?
If well, go out. I could always record or catch up such things and I don't really watch much TV besides my family's tradition of watching the hit Saturday night sci-fi/fantasy programme on BBC1 (such as Dr Who) and the game and talent shows. I rarely watch TV in live time and I much prefer films, I find not much fun in watching reality TV unless it's a random lazy afternoon and a zoological or homes purchase programme is on or something, I will even watch cartoons, too (I prefer the older ones). I am not that traditional, mind, I just have some grounding comforts since the TV was once pretty centric escapism for the end of the day. I may have people online who want to talk to me so I must consider them, too. I wouldn't mind going out anyday I am free, to have a blast. I am frequently cooped up at home, etc, and love a change of scenery. Note: I sometimes have nausea with eating which makes me feel uncomfortable eating out so if it's eating out, especially exotic things, that'd be another factor to say no.
15) How do you act when you're stressed out?
The only time I feel stressed out is of the whole world is against me or if I'm bombarded with forms, some health issues and assignments. Which is pretty rare. I tend to be more anxious than stressed and can experience a big loss of energy and affection and distracting myself with fantastical things or just my favourite things in general helps me, I would in effect go on a binge on fantasy and reassure myself by diving into philosophy and finding myself while dodging existential depression and the issues that are more immediate. I don't know if I'm somewhat schizophrenic or whatever but I have voices in my head that aren't me, but it's not an unhealthy thing in my case, it's more like invisible friends and they steer me back to good thought patterns and help me deal with my issues by telling me to think straight (psychs don't seem bothered by this, hence - I only really go to psychs for my agoraphobia, to note). On a second note, my actual own personal inner voice is very optimistic and chatty and helps me analyse and judge things better.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people?
People who are too rigid or too lawless. I like people who have common sense and are balanced.
I don't like people who are contrary to my values or like to start intellectual conflicts. I don't like people who are too more or less intellectual than me, I like people who are a balance between ground and imaginative or who can help me with what I just can't do who I can return the favour to for what I am seemingly better at than them (yin and yang sort of thing). I don't like strict or violent people or know it alls or preachers and exhibitionists for things I don't like. I believe in liberties but I also believe people should have the freedom to avoid such things. I don't like abusers, those obnoxious frat kids who use and are disrespectful to others, and I don't like bullies or blackmailers.
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people?
Anything but practical things unless I can add something imaginative to it or we're talking about or sharing what we find mutually awesome, People discussing their latest home improving buy and things at work don't make me feel connected, I like to feel engaged and I like to talk about interesting things or how in a group we all relate to each other or the dynamic as to which one of us is the Tom, Dick or Harry (typology stuff even, sometimes). A really fun discussion for me involves spontaneous roleplay, because I am big kid like that. Talking about ridiculous fun things like vegetarian zombies, how awesome it would be if we went on a trip to disneyland and enter a real fantasy world somehow, and how riding red pegasuses over the pink purple sun as the rainbow leprechauns waves us off into the distance would be an interesting scene. Yeah, I'm kind of crazy in my head to some people.
18) What kind of things do pay the least attention to in your life?
Currently? Cosmetics, fashion, chores, current affairs, indie/pop music culture, TV trends and bills.
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? What would your friends never say about your personality?
Right now I only have internet friends. Those are mostly feeling or slightly geeky people. They tend to see me as friendly, e-affectionate (I can never have enough virtual hugs), bipolar from outgoing to pretty casual and like to stay in contact. They would never say I was that cold or calculative unless depressed or overly annoying or draining but they may say I sound distracted sometimes yet talkative at others times. Now it's mostly text based communication due to technical reasons which I am increasingly becoming bored of. I really want to develop an offline social life yet my location and specific interests aren't all that compatible, I don't really go anywhere to meet anyone and this will hopefully change soon with engagement in classes and then even certain kinds of clubs since I'm old enough now and all that (mind due, I get shocked when I realise I'm not 14 or something anymore).
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing?
I can't stand being on my own so I at least have to chat online and even engage in things like this sometimes.
If I had to be entirely alone I would try to focus on being creative, music, downloading music, may be dance about, do random stuff like make faces at myself in the mirror or build a pyramid from stationary and entertain myself with random stuff as a child would with toys and if I break something of someone else's possession and do something to make it better in the process of making that worse I would put on a poker face and try not to laugh as that wouldn't be very appropriate in my eyes. If I could go out with just one or two people or so I would enjoy taking a long leisurely walk in the country/forests, may be playing some game together or if it's with more than two others, party/game, engage in leisurely activities (some loose sport even, though I suck at sports, usually since I'm pretty weak physically in that respect) or go to the cinema may be, I guess.