My lifestyle and philosophy can be summed up:
Alone we are all one. Self-expression is a mirror in which others can see themselves. Know thyself, express thyself; merge with the cosmos.
This is not some motivational poster-phrase, it’s something I discovered through exploring myself deeply over many years. Parts of this phrase emerged while tripping, during very hard times, in extreme circumstances.
To quote my typing thread from a year ago:
[Side note, I was not even CONSIDERING type 4 when I wrote this; not for at least another year..]
On a deeper level, I live to expose my true self through my work. I feel I’m a vessel through which songs and stories emerge. The content serves as a mirror. It exposes parts of myself that are buried deep within my subconscious, and which might otherwise remain unnoticed. In sharing my work, I hope to function as a mirror for others. What success means, to me, is knowing that my fight to sing on my album, despite speaking in a whisper, has inspired someone else to create her own artwork. Success is hearing someone quote my lyrics or reference my stories because it expresses something SHE is feeling. I want people to see themselves in my work, rather than merely seeing “me.” I want to touch on something universal. And, through bearing my own soul, I hope to inspire others to express themselves honestly, and to pursue their dreams against all odds.
If this sounds ‘self-glorifying’ it’s because I dug into myself for years and came to embrace what I once despised. Mirroring - also known as introjection - is an asset and a fault, depending how you look at it. My friend used to call me “Echo” in jest. I was both relieved that someone understood me and insecure that someone saw through me. I felt weak, transparent, exposed. I wrote songs & stories about it. Over the years I came to appreciate this as an honest part of what makes me me. Embracing and using the mirror is being true to myself. Wielding my power. Practicing a craft is polishing the vessel.
I’ve made people cry because I embodied their essence so thoroughly in lyrics or fictional work. When I watch a movie that pulls me, I AM the protagonist. When someone’s tale of suffering pulls me, I am suffering, I am her. This is part of who I am, and doesn’t make me less of who I am. Not every person or experience stands out, but the parts of the world that I notice, that shape me and fuel me, get mirrored in myself and my work. I watch myself evolve in this artistic mirror, and my experiences and influences are part of that evolution of self. I express my will, heart, and mind. I am Øne, everyone and no one: human, animal and symbol at once. I am my past, present and future. I am my experiences. I am the here and now. I am my perspective. I absorb and consume and reflect back to the world what it gives me, shaped and colored by my own looking glass. Like an abstract, fantastical painter who says “I draw what I see.” A phoenix; absorbing everything around me and expanding until the creative purge explodes and I am reborn.
At my core is a mirror. A vampire at my worst, a vessel at my best. If I seek anything beyond carnal indulgence, it’s mirroring. Connectivity through absorption and expression. “Alone, we are all øne.”