I feel certain by now that I'm an INFJ, yet I'm still somewhat conflicted over my enneatype, considering that I possess the moodiness and sensitivity of a four, yet also have the anxiety issues and insecurity of a six
I feel however, that much of my anxiety is rooted in severe self-consciousness over how others are perceiving me and how well I am living up to my own values and standards (in terms of how I should act as a person and treat other people), since I am always hesistant to act in a way that would provoke tension or misunderstanding between myself and others. I am not necessarily attracted to structured environments, and am certainly not a fan of tradition, yet what I do value most is familiarity and comfort. I enjoy peaceful, aesthetic environments in which I am able to relax and roam freely as I wish, without warriness or restraints, and am most uncomfortable once there is some form of conflict that is disturbing the peace of said environment, during which I will become anxious and react somewhat aggressively at worst. I am not good at dealing with stress or minor details I find trivial, since I prefer moving at my own pace and accomplishing things my own way rather than following someone else's ideal; still I am often conflicted between being an individual and fitting in with society's mold, as I am the type of person who is not necessarily concerned with alienating myself from others to stress that I'm unique, but rather simply wants the freedom to develop her own pathway and her own techniques for approaching and resolving problems. As I have said before, I have my own way of viewing things and do not always agree with those of others (even though I am never imposing or dogmatic over said values).
I love to feel connected to people, and perceive reality as being interconnected by people who have differing viewpoints and personalities, yet have their own strengths and contribute to society in their own way (even if I am still trying to figure out what my own strengths are). I am curious and question/ overthink things constantly, which is yet another issue contributing to my anxieties. I wonder about the meaning beyond what is already there and try to form my own interpretations of things, yet am pretty much the most indecisive person I have ever met, since I never treat my feelings as valid until I am able to have them corroborated by someone else. I take a while to reach closure for everything as well, as there is always a new possibility that is lingering about or a newer way to interpret things (leading to my being disorganized and jumping from one activity/ project to the next, which has earned me an infamous reputation among my teachers in school, who see me as being "brilliant, but lazy").
I also become absorbed in a rich inner fantasy world whenever I am alone filled with characters and creative scenarios, and am admittedly a bit of a romantic dreamer at heart, which occurs to me often in school and leads to my being distracted. My interests are also quite varied, as I continuously jump from one interest to the next once something else seems intriguing to me.
So... what do you guys think my enneagram type is?