So... like most people, I'm having a little trouble deciding on a type. So I'm asking for help.
The first time I took the test I got INTP. (It was a free online test... I don't know if those things are accurate at all. But I could just have easily chosen answers that were, to me, ideal.)
Then, like most people as well, I did a little research of my own about the functions. Learned a thing or two.
Yet I still have a few questions... that, hopefully, will be answered soon.
Would you guys care to help me out with this? Please?
Here are some information.
1.) Ni vs Ne: When I'm thinking, or presented with a new information, I don't... dwell on the facts that are presented to me. Sometimes... someone will say something... and I didn't even listen all that much... but then if they ask me to repeat what they've said... I am able to somehow do it. When someone presents new information... if it's abstract ... I don't have to focus on the details. I just... for some reason... get it. I don't know how to explain this. Sometimes I'm, by reflex, predicting what someone will say... and it can get annoying (like with books I'm reading)... because the element of surprise is lost. But that's how I take information in. I kind of wait for it to sink in (it sinks in in a way that I cannot explain)... and when it does. I just get it. I have had some "Aha!" moments. This seems to be Ni... but err... in college... I would be good at making stuff up... which is Ne(coming up with ideas). It's fairly easy for me to connect one idea to the other. In a losing argument... I will use "uncertainty" to distract my opponent... and throw many, many ideas or possible scenarios for the purpose of having them lose focus. I'm really good at that. Or say... someone pisses me off online... it would be easy for me to come up with a foolproof plan of revenge. I actually have carried out and been successful with some. I also don't take people's words at face value. I interpret other people's words and actions through their possible meanings. Like someone asking a question... I won't mind the question... but my thought would be focused on... "what is the purpose of this question? If I say this... how will this person react to it? what kind of person asks a question like that?! teehee.". Ne?
2.) Fi vs Fe: When I was younger... I really didn't get along with people because I would just say what's on my mind. I had no intention to emotionally connect with anyone. That got me into a lot of trouble. I had a lot of opinions that were... unpopular. And I said them to people which made them hate me. But I seem to always had a thing for the underdog. Anyone I see being mistreated... some part of me would want to fight for them. When I was dating... (peer pressure) I intimidated men, I guess. Because I would see through their bs, and I would behave in a nontypical way. Someone being inappropriate, in my view... would be told off. Is this Fi?
I've learned the value of conforming a little bit to societal expectations though. Being an island is not much fun sometimes. I've changed my behavior a little bit... so that i appear friendly to people. Deep down, I mean no harm to people... I want to genuinely understand how they tick or to actually know, sometimes, what it's like to be in their shoes. There was a time in my life when I actually wanted to connect with them. But... these days... I'm just friendly. I guess, I'm using more Fe.
3.) Te vs Ti: when I'm researching or learning something new. The best way for me to understand it would be through... adding more information to the new information(the internet helps with this). After I've collected enough data... I'll attempt to understand the basic, underlying principle of something... when I do... I can then just apply it to everything else. There is a pattern, I suppose, that I automatically look for. It helps a lot also to imagine how that information is relevant to what I'm going to use it for. Most of the time, I don't like asking people to teach me things... I prefer doing my own research or figuring things out myself. Then after thinking about it... i'll know. I don't know which it is... cause doing own research seems(i like to personalize my knowledge)Ti, but I look for it external facts (I write them down... organize them when I can... when I'm reading a book I like to write facts I consider relevant on it, I time myself... err. I also think of applying this information, so, once upon a time I've dreamt of changing the world single-handedly) which is Te.
4.) Si vs Se: the world. I have not noticed much of the world... until recently. (Thank you, Dalai Lama) Or maybe that's just what i think. But I've interacted with it a lot... before the advent of the internet. (I used to tinker and build things) But I enjoy it when I'm there... noticing things. If I try to remember things... there are stuff about the physical world that I readily notice that others don't. A woman at the grocery store wearing an adult diaper which my mom thought was just a well-endowed bottom... a slightly different orange tinge of the sky... an old man sitting on a bench with a small possibly contagious rash on his wrist... I notice when things are different from how they usually are. This is... Se right? I was nostalgic when I was depressed...most people tend to be, I guess. So I probably was using a lot of Si then... hence, the confusion on my part.
Here is a definition of Si
"Sometimes a feeling associated with the recalled image comes into our awareness along with the information itself. Then the image can be so strong, our body responds as if reliving the experience. The process also involves reviewing the past to draw on the lessons of history, hindsight, and experience."
The past is useful to me... because I can learn from it. So I revisit it sometimes... to keep myself on a forward track.
Sometimes... a certain smell would remind me of a place... how a stranger behaves would remind me of an old friend... a just-about-to-rain weather would remind me of lazy college days. (Si)
What do you think my type is?
And were my umm poor attempts at figuring out my functions accurate?
Thanks in advance for the help.
One thing I'm certain of is my introversion. I cannot stand to be in the presence of someone who talks for any extended length of time(or to be with anyone for any extended period of time). I physically become ill.