Hello guys, this is my second thread in this forum if thats something I should mention.
I made a thread earlier and I thought I could actually pin me down to INFJ (2w1). But after watching my behaviour lately Im not sure anymore.
I would just tell why I think I am an INFJ and why not or at least I will try to put this in a proper structure
I dont think that I fully understand Ni, but I think Ni wants to find every hidden meaning, going into great depths - thats totally appliable for me, (we had a parent conference day lately and every teacher said that Im very smart and that I want to know everything, asking a lot of (very good) questions, one teacher even said that its a joy to have me in his class because I often point out views on an issue that are right but the teacher himself hadnt thought about before)
Another teacher told me that she thinks that my brain functions like a mans brain (Im a 17-year old girl btw ) and that my questions are really analytic and logic. And so do I, I think Im very analytic, and my brain is thinking all the time.
Im really into things like science, Id like to study chemistry and things alike.
Im definitely an introvert, and I get drained so much when Im around others, especially girls my age. Because all they talk about is make up, their hair, their 789 ex boyfriends, their current boyfriends, how their nailpolish matches with their dresses and things alike. If I just have to listen to such conversations I freak the fuck out. Thats just so shallow. Im rather antisocial and I really want to change that, but how should I do that if every singlke time I make a new friend they annoy me within the first month because all they are is shallow, and easy to figure out.
Maybe that all makes me seem like Im rather a thinker than a feeler, but Im also so sensitive, so extremely. If someone yells at me I begin to cry.
My boyfriend (hes really the most important person in my life) got yelled at by his father the other day and I just started crying because I felt how terrible he was feeling. And Im also so sensitive to touch, I dont like crowds, I hate them. I dont like being touched when people are talking to me. I feel smothered and will withdraw from them.
I have like 3 people who dont annoy me, the others are all sooo extreemely draining.
But I feel the vibes in groups, I can easily figure out who is the "groupruler", which power whom has. But just as long as Im not emotionally engaged in these kind of situations. Then my decisions will be the worst ever because I start feeling. I often try to distance myself from my feeling side because its just so strong and every emotion is so overwhelming if I wouldnt try to stop it a bit.
I can be cold as ice if someone hurts me, if this is the case I will instantly neglect this person and ignore him or her like forever. I dont like to show my feelings, yet if someone knows me well they can read everything straight of my face. I cant hide my feelings altough I would want to do that. Its just impossible.
Im also very moody and perfectionistic, Ive got so high standards for myself and therefore for others aswell. If someone doesnt fits my idea of "perfection" I get really angry. Im very bad temperamented.
I hope someone can help me figure it out, because I just cant let the topic MBTI go without being 100% sure which type I am. Its not letting me go
And Im sorry if my english is bad, its just a second language
Thanks a lot!