no ploblem haha
thank you for trying to figure out my type
I' doing this because that's just what I've ever done, like when I was a child I had to think of so many things that my mother should have thought of, I had to "stand on my own feet" really early cause I just felt that my mother wasn't able to do so, she often forgot my doctor's appointments or something and I had to think of things like that. And getting up for school was also my part because my mother didn't woke me most of the time. And in the first and second years of school I was always late, in the 3rd grade I was late on the first day and I just remember my teacher, she was sooo angry at me and I felt so bad. So this was the day I was really scared to be late, I was like 7 or something if that's important, so since that experience I'm overly punctual.
And I'm also so sensitive, I feel guilty a lot because I just can't stand knowing someone's angry at me.
Behaving well and following all rules was just like finding security for me, as I said it started when I was 4 or 5 years old I guess, I felt safe in this system (rules and laws) so this behavior just stayed.
And it's also so much easier to behave well because nobodys angry then and nobody stresses me. And as I said I feel guilt so easily.
I'm sorry,my english isn't so good, I hope you get what I mean