**I put a previous post up, but cleaned it up a bit. I think it was a bit confusing before.
I've been trying to figure out my MBTI type for years and still have no idea what I am. It drives me crazy. I've compiled a list of info (very contradictory in nature). If anyone's up to the challenge, give it a go!
I’m very anti-social and aloof. I go to great lengths to avoid hanging out with others, including family members. Most of my time is spent inside by myself. It’s not that I’m shy or awkward; it’s just I’m not interested in what other people’s lives. However, I can be very gregarious and bubbly if the occasion calls for it. I do like helping others and enjoy working with the public vs. working by myself because I am a horrible self-starter and get easily distracted. I'm currently in 'creative' sales and I take great pleasure in feeling like I'm making a difference in people's lives. I'm also a rescue volunteer a local animal shelter too.
I think of myself as an introvert, but I also have no problem opening up to people I don't know well. But sometimes, I will blurt out private information without meaning too and then regret it. At lot of times I don't think before speaking and it gets me in trouble (hence my outspoken nature).
I think I like meeting and interacting with people on more of a superficial level vs. personal level. I don't know what that means.
I love reading fiction; however sometimes I wonder if my previous job wasn't the right one. I was a reading teacher and I loved it but I hated the ambiguity of it too. I wish I worked with straight facts instead of creating theories in relation to students' reading problems. That's why I'm thinking of extending my degree to teach history instead.
I have a big imagination and enjoy writing fiction. I also am very intuitive of what people are thinking or feeling and a lot of times people are taken aback by my keen sense of observation.
I hate ambiguity. In college, I was often confused with teachers who did not get to the point.' I had trouble following info that was not linear. I always wanted step-by-step data, and I asked tons of questions to clarify meanings. However, I also (at the same time) like working on lots of things at once and hate being tied down. I hate repetitive tasks and being boxed in. Contradictory!
People have a hard time following my train of thoughts and I've been told my communication skills are sub-par. I jump to thought to thought and people are often left wondering what I'm trying to say.
I also have a keen sense of aesthetics and I love decorating and I am good at crafts. My current job requires me to help people decorate their homes and I love it.
I can be very blunt and outspoken, especially on topics that are very important to me. I often times don't realize I hurt other peoples' feelings until it's too late and then I'm often left wondering what the hell I did wrong. I‘m also very assertive and don’t shy away from confrontation. However, I hate disharmony and will go to great lengths to make amends. I rarely hold grudges. I will confront someone if something is off and try to set things straight. I also have no problem apologizing for my mistakes if they seem rational.
I rarely ask others questions about their own lives because frankly, I don’t care.My husband gets offended because he doesn’t think I care about what he says. He often says I never ask him about himself and he easily gets offended by things I say. I often times have no idea what he’s even referring to.
On the other hand, I feel am I very sensitive and take things very personal (very contradictory, I know). I hate criticism and I like to be rewarded for doing a good job. I constantly think that people hate me or that they’re conspiring against me. I’m very paranoid.
I am uncomfortable with emotional outbursts from others and I have a difficult time comforting others if the emotions don’t seem illogical. However, as I said I can also be very emotional. I can cry at the drop of a hat if my feelings are hurt, but I can also be very tough-minded if I have to. However, I hate being emotional because it makes me feel weak.
I will give the shirt off my back to those that I love and will put my needs on the back burner to help others. However, I’ve also been told that I can also be very selfish and self-centered at the same time. What?
I have a hard time giving way to flights of fancy if the facts are right in front of me. For example, when my mother was dying of cancer they gave her 5% chance of living to 2 years. Everyone in my family thought there was going to be a miracle and that she could beat the disease. They thought I was too rational because I knew in my heart (after researching the facts and talking to her doctors) that one cannot deny facts.
I will go to great lengths to make others happy-on my own terms. I will do things for others and ask for nothing in return. I will search forever for the perfect gift or surprise people with nice gestures out of the blue.
I like to make lists and plans but often times I lose the lists and have no idea what I wrote about in the first place. I’m not very laid back and I’ve been told I can be anxious and uptight. I don't like change and I like to know what I'm getting into, but I can also be impulsive as well (and this surprises people).
I've also been told I'm very rigid. Most of this stems to the fact that I feel the need to be in control of things, even things I have no control over. However, I am also a total scatterbrain. Can’t remember where I put stuff, lose everything, etc.
I also hate making decisions, and once a decision is made, I often second guess it. When I am making a decision, I often do lots of research and compare and contrast information. Rarely do I make a big decision unless it feels logical to me.
So, that's me in a nutshell. Good Luck!
My Enneagram is:
Core: 6w5 sp/so