Hello, I'm Rorut, a 20 years old female. I have a hard time typing myself, so I'd ask your opinion. If it's okay.
Let's see a few things about me. I try not to over-analyze everything as I usually do.
I'm a psychology major, and I'm really interested in behavior, the society, hallucinogens, parapsychology, revolution, quantum physics etc. I don't want to be a therapist, because I'm not patient and tolerant enough, I'm also afraid I'd think all the time about my clients problems, or it'd be hard sometimes not to be so personal and tell what I really think. I evolved a lot, but I used to be really rude when I thought someone wasn't right, or behaved stupid. This is one things that is hard for me to type, because it can be Fi or Ti as well (and what if my Fi value-system is about logic?). I used to have lots of illogical things when I had to tell my opinion about things, but I've always felt it was consistent. Then I met with my INTJ friend. We began to talk a lot. I found her sometimes quite offensive and hurtful, but didn't care about it, because I knew she was right. So I repressed my emotions (wich had a few side-effects, like I acted way too "rational") and talked to her about my thoughts. It helped me to improve the logical consistency and introspection in my life.
How do I judge people? Well, I can humiliate anyone if I'm really angry (but nowdays I'm quite polite). What makes me angry is when someone spreads his/her stupidity (like social dogmas, racism, sexism, too emotional or fake rational behavior). If it's only me who can hear it, I'm more calm, and I'm more patient. But when I know others can hear that shit, and they can learn stupid things, I'm usually the one who'll get things straight. I've never been afraid of confrontation, even as a child (I was always the smart-ass, and everyone wanted me to shut up). If I don't agree, I'm gonna tell it face to face. I can easily play the devil's advocate, but I play with it only among friends, enjoying an argument. Around people my main goal is to help them get a better pespective on things, so I try to stay consistent. I can easily criticize, and I struggle when I have to tell compliments (I feel awkward). I also have problems with intimacy. I've always found those super romantic moments funny and awkward, and I'm having a hard time recognizing my emotions and deal with them (f.e. I had feelings for my best friend, but I thought he's not the type of person I need, so I repressed this feeling for almost a year). I found it also hard to find someone I can fall in love with. Usually I find people boring and sometimes I have a crush, but it fades away in months or weeks. I don't want to have the typical family model. I don't want to be a mother, and live in a silent house, having barbecue party with the boring neighbours around me. I don't want to take care of a child for such a long time. When I was a kid, I usually had nightmares like I'm in the church, on my wedding, but I know I don't want it, or I'm pregnant, and there's a husband lying next to me in the bed, like a Ken doll.
I think I can be really emotional and empathetic. I usually consider other's feelings when I have to decide, and I try to go with the 'what's logically and emotionally best for most of the people' decision. I've always had this idea, to "make the world a better place". As a child I imagined it as helping the homeless, help people to evolve spiritually, and so on. I saved everyone, and I wanted to help everyone (this could also do something to the fact that my ESFJ mother had a great impact on me). These things didn't change but as I became older i realized that this isn't enough, and it's not a solution, but the end of the problem. Now I want to concentrate on politics, economics and education, to help people live as a free-thinking individuals, who are open-minded, rational, and emotionally/spiritually well-developed.
Why I'm not sure if I'm an ENTP (although I usually get this score on MBTI-tests, and ENFp on socionics) is the fact that sometimes I feel I'm more emotional than other NTs (although who I can always see is my robotic INTJ friend, who's maybe not the best person to be compared to), and I used to struggle a lot about what is moral and what is not, am I a good person or not. I'm not sure if I'm just a healthy NT, who can use her Fe pretty well, or a really logical ENFp with a nice acces to Ti. Sometimes I thought about ENFJ too, because of my functions tests and the fact that sometimes I feel really uncomfortable in new situations, and I can be afraid of new things. Also, I think my Ni is really well-developed.
So, the other problem is my functions test. Here are 3 different tests' results.
2. Based on your cognitive functions, your type is most likely:
Most Likely: INTP
or Second Possibility: ISFJ
or Third Possibility: INFJ
Your cognitive functions are, in order of development:
Ti - Si - Ni - Fe - Ne - Te - Fi - Se
3. Te (Extroverted Thinking) (50%)
your valuation of / adherence to logic of external systems / hierarchies / methods
Ti (Introverted Thinking) (70%)
your valuation of / adherence to your own internally devised logic/rational
Ne (Extroverted Intuition) (55%)
your valuation of / tendency towards free association and creating with external stimuli
Ni (Introverted Intuition) (60%)
your valuation of / tendency towards internal/original free association and creativity
Se (Extroverted Sensing) (35%)
your valuation of / tendency to fully experience the world unfiltered, in the moment
Si (Introverted Sensing) (55%)
your valuation of / focus on internal sensations and reliving past moments
Fe (Extroverted Feeling) (45%)
your valuation of / adherence to external morals, ethics, traditions, customs, groups
Fi (Introverted Feeling) (60%)
your valuation of / adherence to the sanctity of your own feelings / ideals / sentiment
based on your results your type is likely - intp
I'd find your comments really helpful. Thank you, and sorry for the grammar mistakes (English is my second language, and I was too lazy to use a dictionary).