Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.
I'm Christine, and I'm 16. I've been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, General Anxiety Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, and OCD, and I'm on Lexapro. I've been through inpatient (psychiatric hospitalization) for suicidal thoughts. My psychologist thinks that I have hints of antisocial personality disorder and narcissistic personality disorder. Notable events in my life include: my mother getting colon cancer last January. I had to fly up to Montreal and the whole thing was just a wreck. My parents don't have the greatest relationship, so I'm often caught in the middle. I applied to an Oxbridge summer program, wasn't able to go, and had a complete crisis of confidence that I'm still getting over, and in early September of 2012, all those things combined, along with the pressure of returning to school, and I suffered a mental breakdown, and that's when I started getting treatment and was diagnosed.
My current state of mind is stressed because I need to take a practice SAT, and I hate standardized tests. I always sort of figured I could wing me SAT but...apparently not.
2. What type(s) do you usually score as on tests?
INFP, ENFP, ISTJ, ESTJ, ENTJ, INTJ, ENTP
3. Click on this link:Flick: Explore! Choose 2 photos and look at each for as long as you feel that you need. Copy and paste the photos here (or write the link like example: www[dot]flickr[dot]com/photos/jacoboson/8697480741/in/explore-2013-05-01), and write your impression of each of them.
Quite pretty, actually. My mother works in transportation, and she really likes trains and such. I like the way the light reflects off the snow. It kind of reminds me of Anna Karenina, for some reason. I like how the town in the background is blurry, and the focus is on the train. I used to take photography, so I wonder what f-Stop they had the camera on to catch a moving train
Absolutely stunning. I wonder where it is. I went to Scotland last summer, it kind of looks like that - just with more trees. Look at the sun, and the color green. It's sort of like something out of Lord of the Rings, or Harry Potter. It seems magical, like something out of a fairytale or fantasy movie. The sun is setting, and look at the color of the sky - it's a gorgeous kind of grey-peach.
4. You are on the clock to fix something, a friend of yours sits beside you and gives a lot of interesting ideas, none of them actually help or are related to your situation, but they are still something you find interesting. What is your reaction? What do you say? What do you do? What's your train of thought?
I would probably internally sigh, and become a little annoyed. But if they were talking about something I found interesting, I would discuss it with them as I tried to fix whatever it is I'm thinking. Or listen to them, and say 'that idea sounds good' but explain why it wouldn't work gently. Or I would listen to them absent minded, and nod whenever they looked at me.
5a. What are some of your most important values?
Intelligence, Tact, Cleverness, Ambition, Loyalty, Imaginative. Respect. Trust.
5b. Can they change? What would be the reason if they changed?
I suppose they good, if I go through a massive voyage of self discovery again. Really, a moving experience, I guess, that would make me think otherwise.
6. You are in a car with some other people, the people in the car are talking. Someone makes a claim that you see as immoral/rude/cruel. What is your inward reaction? What do you think? What do you say?
I would be miffed, and internally be angry. I would think they're an idiot, and barbaric, and uncivilized. I would remain quiet, or say, 'Do you really think so?' with a cool raised eyebrow.
7. a) What activities energizes you the most? Why?
Reading, especially if it's a good book. Fencing, because I like to win. Writing, if I've written something I'm proud of. Traveling, going out with friends. Yoga, because it allows me to calm down and focus. Arguing, while in an argument.
7. b) What activities drains you the most? Why?
Volunteering, because I really don't like it. Going to my psychologist's drains me emotionally. Tests at school. Having to talk to people I don't particularly have anything in common with. Going to parties where I don't know anyone. Arguing, you know the aftermath.
8. Do you believe you are introverted or extraverted? Why do you believe that? (Please be as detailed as possible)
I think I'm a lot of both. I am quite quiet, reserved, and enjoy individual activities. I am a bit of a loner in that I'd rather do things myself. I like to stay home, and I don't like to go out much. Yet, I'm really in a good mood when I'm around people, especially people I get along with, because it makes me forget all my mental illnesses, my depression any my anxiety. I like discussing things with other people, being excited about things with them, relating to people. I also like to be in charge of people. One negative personality trait is that I'm quite manipulative. I can seem very friendly and charming, but I'm only using you.
That's where I like most of my friends and family don't know if I'm an introvert or extrovert. I like doing things on my own, but I like going out in the world and seeing things and doing things and like I said, can be quite charming (even though it's for personal gain)
9. Please describe yourself, what do you see as your greatest strengths and what do you see as your greatest weaknesses?
Greatest strengths would include I stay calm in a crisis (if it doesn't involve me), I'm able to think clearly and make good decisions even when I'm emotionally unstable (i.e. choosing to go to inpatient). I can control people easily. I'm very clever. I'm quite resilient. I'm very determined and ambitious - I never take no for an answer. Weaknesses include I get lost in my own head a lot. I don't like to talk about my feelings with others, or admit that I'm feeling depressed. I'm indecisive when it comes to things that affect me. I'm very pessimistic. Sometimes I'm seen as too cold. I'm very judgmental of my peers. I'm hard to get to know.
10. Please describe yourself when you are feeling stressed. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.
Depends on the stressor, but I feel really overwhelmed. I'll stop what I'm doing, and kind of cry for a little. I'll take time to myself to gather everything, and form a plan on how to deal with whatever is stressing me. I do well under certain kinds of stress, but I do get stressed fairly easily.
11. What is your "soft spot" (the area that makes you upset if people mess with)?
Anything that has to do with mental illness, like jokes or undermining it or whatever. I've been there, so I hate when people talk like that - especially suicide jokes, like 'I'd kill myself if so and so'. I mean, I know they're not serious, but it still gets to me.
12. What are most of the ideas/thoughts you get generally centered around (try to expand your answers as much as possible)?
Probably all the weird fantasies in my head, like how I want my future to look, etc. A lot of it is really depressing and irrational, because I suffer from depression, haha. I get overwhelmed easily. I'm very negative in my mind, always criticizing myself and others.
13. What's your opinion of getting frequent feedback on what you do? (Someone pointing out what is good, what is bad, what and how to improve) Is there a limit to how often you want feedback? If so, what is the limit?
I like feedback, though constructive criticism is not necessary in everything - like I don't want a friend trying to make me better at soccer when I'm just playing in the background with my friends. I used to be unable to handle constructive criticism, but now I know the only way to get better is to listen to it.
14. Anything beyond what has been discussed that you would like to add?
I have a very weird personality. On one hand, I'm competitive, ambitious, assertive, manipulative, judgmental, go-getter, controlling, scheduled, all of that, but on the other, I'm quiet, idealistic, reserved, a dreamer, principled, always lost in my own thoughts.