I feel like I am really somewhere in the borderline line between INFJ and ENFP and I just can't figure out which one of them I am on my own.
I am very creative and have pretty developed aesthetic feeling. I love music and art. I often write and I am good in expressing myself with words, but I never create anything that speaks specifically I love to create some mystery, I like to let people guess what I meant. I am highly motivated with meaning of things and world around me. I can get very deep into something, if I feel like it is really meaningful. I even sometimes can get possessed with one thing, even though everyone else gave up on it along ago. I just need to get into core of how things work. I see one thing from many different angles, but it often makes things complicated, because it makes me indecisive and makes me to overanalyze even the simple things. I hate when I am forced to do work, that I see as meaningless, or somehow "wrong". I usually have very careless attitude to work like that, and sometimes don't do anything at all and I openlly express how much I just don't care. When I see something doesn't work the way it should be, or someone doesn't act "right" I express it very openly and don't care if the person is an authority, or my classmate. I am totally not afriad of the conflict. I am not the person who would say "yes" on everything. I am very critical and I stand by my own opinions. I hate dry dates and prohibitions without explanation. I need to figure out things on my own. I like to use my analytical skills and critical thinking. I need to understand things on the inside and process them on my own. I need a lot of freedom to express things my own way. I hate to feel limited. I think my critical thinking often gives me sober and realistic outlook at the world, but it also doesn't steal my idealism. I have almost childish high expectations from life and then I am often dissapointed. That's why I am prone to feelings of unsatisfaction, or melancholy. I have high expectations from my own self and also from others. I need to be sucessful and do something, that I feel is important. When it comes to critize other's habits, or personalities I am often restrained, because I am afriad of hurting other's feelings. I feel like I can really understand people, see their real cores and their hidden motivations why they do things they do. That's why I tend to be pretty tolerant to their deficiencies, but not mine. I try to be become better and develope myself according to my standards and ideals. I think I understand the theoretical side of how someone thinks, or feels, but I often suck at solving concrete emotional, or psychic problems. I am not good in giving concerete advices, even though I try to empathize and help people. I am really the friend, you can call in the middle of the night with some problems and I will go out with you, support you...but I somehow always stay distant. I often take emotionality the sarcastic way. I am not really good in expressing it. That's why most of my friends thinks I am not very sensitive, even though I think I am . Around my friends I usually express my careless and fun loving side. I feel like it gives me the opportunity to release my childish and crazy side and I am happy that way. But I am often shy with strangers. I am reserved to people I don't know well and I am not very self confidant. But I have strong feeling of inner pride and price, which just can't be broken. I often try to please people around me and be "good" , but I also need to be individualistic, which creates a bit of a conflict.
So what is your opinion? ENFP, or some INFJ hybrid? Or even something else?