It was not hard for me to identify my instinctual stack initially, yet I find myself questioning it now when I hear other people talk about SP-doms.
I identify as sp/sx with a major so blindspot, FYI. I'm open to being so-dom though, but I'd need a compelling argument.
-When I think of the instincts through the lens of my core type's fixation (e4), then I easily see myself as SP-dom. I'm indulgent, pampering myself, like to feel in control of my physical state & be independent. I may avoid people so as not to have to compromise my preferences to accomodate theirs. However, I also forget to eat, have trouble keeping any consistent schedule for physical needs, need reminders from others to care for practical things (ie. auto maintenance), am unaware of safety concerns, and find little comfort in acquiring "stuff". I get an urge to get rid of my possessions on occasion because they "bog me down".
- When I'm out of work it can occupy my mind almost as much as when I'm single & obsessed with finding a partner. This is because I don't like to be a burden on others & like to have the power to obtain my own needs. Once I have work, I may sabotage my security in it, leaving myself open to being fired (which never happens though; I find a way to appear indispensable).
- I can be "reckless" in that I don't care for my own physical welfare sometimes, deliberately doing things I know are bad for me (nothing extreme, I promise). I may eat foods which trigger my GERD, drink too much alcohol, sleep too much/little, drive a bit reckless, pick at my skin mindlessly til I "cause" acne right before an important event (mostly broke this habit, but still pops up), drink coffee til I shake - stuff like that.
-Naranjo's e4 SP-dom sounds like me more than his e4 sx-dom or so-dom (but not overwhelmingly so). I can certainly whine like any self-disrespecting e4, but apparently not enough to have a rep for it in person, and the SP-dom is supposedly the least open about their unfulfilled needs & the most envy denying. It took me awhile to admit envy in myself or needing. I used to try & hide my feelings as much as possible. People still see me as tight-lipped about my feelings in person, much more like Naranjo's masochistic, burden-bearing SP-dom 4 (the so-dom is the whiniest & most passive, the sx-dom the most openly burning with envy).
- Most sp/sx descriptions sound like me as a whole, but many sp descriptions on their own do not. Sp descriptions tied directly to 4 sound like me too.
- Sx/sp descriptions sound very close to me also, but I don't regard myself as attracting/repelling as strongly or being as extreme as an sx-dom is often made out to be. I'm decidedly more aloof & less pursuing of my desires. I won't throw caution to the wind. I don't like being too vulnerable, but more so in an emotional sense. What has sometimes prevented me from being impulsive is a higher sense of morality which goes beyond my own self-value (ie. God, respect for human life, my family etc). I consider this good except that I don't honestly value my own welfare enough.
Have I stacked myself correctly? :P