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I grew up as an only child in loving family. During my childhood I never knew the lack of anything. I really had almost everything that a child can want, but relationship in our family were a bit complex. I think that's why I was such an oversensitive child. I used to cry over anything. But I was also very hyperactive and curious. I always wanted to know how and why things work some way. I loved to learn and discover new things. I also had very high ideals and exact idea how things should be, how are things right. Even as kid I was obssesed with social norms, good behavior, I wanted to please everyone. But I was also extremly stubborn, if I made my opinion about something, or decided I won't do something none could breake me. I was so opinionated even as child. I had problems with too wild imagination and my tendency to live in other worlds and fantazies. I used to make up my own fantasy stories and as soon as I learned to write I started to write these stories down. I had a bit of a problems at school. I wasn't very socially skilled and I struggled to find friends. I also had problems with my attention because I was such a dreamer. I was also very hyperactive and wanted to do everything as first, know everything as first, I wasn't very patient and when the result of my actions wasn't immediate I used to become very angry and had a lot of troubles with finishing projects. Even though I didn't have much friends I was extremly talkative and never knew when to shut up. I was pretty much an "attention whore" as a child.As I grew up I became more reserved, closed and very shy. I went more the way of being a rebel who hates the pop and mainstream culture and I tried to find myself in lot of subcultures like punk, gothic, later grunge. I also became pretty emotially closed and hided my feelings behind pose of not giving a damn about anything. As a teenager I was pretty depressed and emotionally unstable. I found my escape in music, theaters and art. I used to sing, act, play the guitar and piano and I still continued to write. My primary need was to express myself and to be creative. I still had a lot of problems with my anger, tendecy to overreact and drama. I started to be pretty reckless and rude to most of the people. My stubborness was also pretty significant. Later I started to be pretty lazy, had thousends of hobbies, but never finish anything, or did anything really responsibly. I found of my friends in subculture and music clubs. In my late teenage years I got pretty wild and my life became a neverending party. I was with my friends all the time and all my responsibilities became not important. Now I am still just very young adult. I am very close to my writting hobby and study journalism. I hope that it will give me enough of freedom for my self expression and my curiosity about everything new will be also filled. But I still fight with my oversensitivy and very wild emotional world. I also didn't learn how to express my feelings. But I was great in reading other people. I was great in getting into cores of things and people. Even in poetry, or art I was great in reading metaphors, hidden meanings and I've been searching for meaning of everything my whole life. To lot of people I am pretty arrogant, reckless and I have a rude humor. I am egocentric and not caring at all. I can't even imagine having kids, at least not in near future. I am still pretty irresponsible and struggle to get things done. But if I really get myself into something I can get obsessed about it. I can totally get myself into one idea and lost the track about everything else. I am highly idealistic and always try to make myself better, learn new things, but I still struggle to finish them. I am a perfectionist with idealistic outlook on life and somtimes the reality knocks me down, but I really try to be more down to earth. I can be pretty critical about things and I also like analysis. I want know how things work. That is helping me staying more down to earth. I believe only things that make sense after my analysis. I actually love to think about things and I have a bit of philosophic mind. When it comes my plans I tend to be chaotic in lot of ways, but I like to know what will happen ahead. I don't like things that are totally unexcepted. I like changes, but as long as day give me the space to do things the way I think is right. I love to plan the parties, I love to plan for the future and sometimes I make lists and day plans, but I often suck in making them real, becaase I end up doing something else a lot of times. Even though I am really sometimes rude to people I care about them. I like to help and I want to feel as a helpfull person. I try to be good according to my ideals, I try to do things the right way, it's just my lack of patienct and hot temper, that often tend to screw somethings. And also my laziness.