Every time I am sure about my type someone shows up and doubt it, or I read some more informations about the type and suddenly I think it's can't be me in anyway. Please would someone help me finally figure out what is my real type? Because I am truly confused.
I am a creative type of a person. I need to have my own freedom for my self expression and creative works. I've never been much into visual art, or into art you can touch, or make with hands. I like the art of using words, I write poems, stories and I also really like music and try to create my own. I am much more interested in the general idea of some work, then in the detials of it. For example when I look at some painting first of all I think about what is the idea of it, what the author tried to say, I am pretty good in reading these things, but I usually miss a lot of detials in the work that others seem to notice. I don't care how perfect, or imperfect the art looks, I am much more interested in how original and meaningful it is. I always look for some meaning of the things around me and I love to know what is behind the surface of something. That is also the reason why I like psychology. I am also good in reading people and getting into their cores, but I am not very good in using these skills in practical conversations. I am not very socially skilled and usually pretty shy, but I love to spend my time with my friends, I love to have fun, parties, adventures... Around the people I know well I usually behave as crazy, hyperactive and talkative person. But not much people see me as someone emotional, or someone helping. When I see someone in real crise I couldn't ever refuse to help, but generally I am much more an egocentric type. I usually do what I want without much thinking about others, or their needs. I tend to forget about the needs of others and often I am pretty selfish.I am not a caring type at all. But if there would be someone needing the real help then I am open to help. I value logic and reasoning over the emotionally manipulative arguments. I always try to figure out things on my own, with my own analysis. But in general even though I don't express my emotions, or how much I care about others and tend to be pretty sensitive. Mostly on criticism. I am also very moody and sometimes see the things only in negative way.
I don't care much about order, or mess around me. I call it "my creative mess" :P , but I sometimes create day plans and like to know a lot of things ahead. I don't like totally unexpected actions. I also have very high ideals and I try to reach them. I think in some thing I am highly idealistic perfectionist and my ideals are often hurt by reality. That's why I sometimes tend t be depressed and dissapointed and fall in depression, extreme laziness and carefreedom. At my worst I tend to be also pretty agressive and too spontaneus and extremly reckless to people around me, seeking only logic without emotions everywhere. I sometimes tend to be obsesed with one idea, or one theory and I just can't get over it until I know how exactly it works. But when I have to do things that are not interesting enough for me, or start to be a stereotype I usually can't finish them.
I am not the leader, but I dislike to follow someone else's rules. I have my own way of doing things and I don't like to change it. Sometimes it's hard for me to adapt, because I tend to be stubborn and also sometimes I find myself be a bit commanding.