I am not new to the personality typing. I know something about the functions, how they work, and I am pretty sure I am an NF type, but my never ending problem and confusion is which one? When I started with MBTI I couldn't decided if I am an ENFP, or INFP and after getting more into types and fucntions I also think if I could be an INFJ, the description seems to fit me well...I know this is long, but I wrote it to really describe my full personality. All of it... Can anyone plese help me decide this?
I am the person who likes to be in a company of other people. I love to spend time with my friends and close people. I like to discuss, talk, I am happy when I can share my opions and hobbies with others. But when it comes to meeting new people I am very shy. I never make the first step and always wait for someone else to start the conversation. It's hard for me to adapt in a new community and it takes me pretty long time to make some new friends. In the company of strangers, or in some big group I tend to by quiet, reserved and I rather stay outside of group activies, I can get involved if something gets really excited, but most of the times I am rather an individual. I acutally value my personal freedom and individuality more than anything. I can get into some group and make some friends, when there is someone who already likes and started to cominicate with me and I can feel some security from that person, anyway I am extremly sensitive on rejection. I have a strong need to be liked, which can be easily hurt. But I don't enjoy the time spent alone. Maybe it's because of my young age, and the fact I can't fully understand how useful can a solitude time be yet.
I love music, art and writting more, than anything. But I think a lot of people and also a lot of artists themselves tend to enjoy just the superficial features of music, or art. I always look for some meaning, or message that is hidden in the song. For me art and music, without any message can't be called an art. I love the sentence, that one my favorite singer said: "Our music is for those who still believe in the power of music to change everything. To change the world and human lives." And this is the reason why I want to make the music once. To have a chance to change something...Make the world a better place, help people, help the wolrd moove somewhere. I can clearly see the problems in sociaty and I take them very personally and I just feel the need to stop them, or at least help society to function better. That's why I am aslo interested in politics, sociology and psychology. The other reason is that I like structurs. I like when I know how things work and since I am orriented toward society I am interested in its system. I also love to be analytical, to think about problems, to go deep, not just look at the core. I actually like to think, I like to chellenge my mind. That's why I am also interested in science and technology. Even though I am not very good in math, or physics I always like to know about new discoveries. I also write a stories, poems and lyrics and I mostly use them to vent my emotions. I am good in using words, I can write pretty well and I am also good in languages.
In venting my emotions other way, than by writting I am not that good. As I said, I tend to be cold and reserved and it is a little difficult for me to show up my emotions. The true is I have a hard time hendeling my anger and I have a hot temper. I easily get mad about something and I am not afriad of fights. When it comes to protect myself and my opinions I am not afraid to stand up for them. But anyway most of my emotions are chaotic and unstable and I don't feel like I have a control over them. I tend to be pretty moody, depressive, negative...There are times when I am at my worst and without any motivation and than they are times when I can get excited almost about anything. It's like being bipolar or so... I can easily get excited about new ideas, I love to try new things and I am usually the one who creats crazy and spontanous ideas with the enthusiasm by the current situation. Sometimes I am intolerant and selfish to others. It's not because I wouldn't have an empathy for them, it's just sometimes my ideas and my opinons seem better to me, than anyone else's and that's when I can become pretty egoistical person. But the true is I like to help people. And I even can feel their emotions. I can easily say how someone feels, or what he wants these things just come naturally to me, but my problem is a lot of I just don't care about their feelings. I feel them, I know how they are, but I don't give a damn...But I could never watch anyone suffer. Even not an animals. I have deep empathy for living beings like that. I am also pretty good in getting into people's cores and true selves. I don't look at their shells, or masks that they use to protect themselves from the external world. I can look behind these mask and tell how person really is.
I like to view the world as a place to explore. A place full of new things. Everything is relative for me. I don't believe in any absolute right or wrong. I don't believe someone can be bad, or good. These things don't really exist. I like when things around me change and I need new and new things to get excited about and to explore and analyze. But I sometimes tend to stick up to some plan, or schedule. I don't really like when things are chaning without any previous warning. I like to know what will happen next, I don't like when the things are totaly unexcepted. I need to know that I am going some right path and that I will reach some goal, because without any future goal I have no motivation to go. When I get excited about something very much I tend to stick up to it. Analyze it over and over, explore the different posibilities almost like an obsession. I need to know how and why is something that way it is and I can't stop untill I know it. But when I do something I am not interested into, it is usually half done, messy work that no one can like.