Other things about me:
I am an 18 year old male.
I suffer from social anxiety, depression, ADHD, and PTSD, all to certain extents and varying.
I sometimes tend to skim through details or passages to get a big picture, which can be inaccurate. This is my ADHD speaking for itself, I think.
I am fascinated by INTPs, and I sometimes wonder that ever since I took that humanmetrics test as accurately as possible the first time and got INTP, my mind has been tricking me to adapt INTP personality traits? I haven't been doing this deliberately though, and this is probably just a foofy possibility my intuition has sparked.
Sometimes I can use sarcasm as a defense mechanism.
I can make fun of people, either in a light hearted way or if someone does something stupid.
While I don't always necessarily agree with them, I can be fascinated by labels and why anything is categorized and labeled.
Sometimes I question whether or not something I am learning will be useful later on in life, or if I should bother learning it, even though I have a desire to get smarter and smarter, mainly for sake of having more to talk about or think about. I also feel like my high IQ (I've been told I have one) shouldn't be wasted.
I am sometimes interested in people's lives and what people do for a living, mainly to build on my insight for how I feel about people and society, and it also helps me form opinions on people.
Sometimes when I'm in conversation with someone and someone explains something obvious to me, I might respond with "Yeah, I know...". I realize this might be rude?
I used to base some decisions on how I felt about how things were right or wrong, however this was usually when I was a kid, and I was told right from wrong a lot by my parents and school.
Sometimes I can be impulsive, in the past I was very impulsive (which was anxiety driven) to the point where I would deliberately put myself in dangerous situations (like for example, sticking a knife through an outlet, or measuring how much pressure it would take to break an LCD screen) just to see what would happen.
When I have a lot of thoughts roaming and circulating my mind, I feel so anxious/excited/stimulated and need to move around. The funny thing is, movement generates my thoughts. Another possible ADHD trait?
Sometimes, when I'm listening to music, images relating to lyrics pop into my mind. However, this isn't automatic; I have to be listening to the lyrics in order for this to occur.
I tell myself I'll do or get into something in the future, but I don't do it right away because I feel like shit at the moment, or I'm too lazy, etc. So I guess I'd say I base my short term decisions on how I feel.
I don't usually have trouble being decisive, from what I can recall. Maybe sometimes I am?
I could be practical, and I can't recall, but as a kid I may have been, I'm not sure though. My memory is foofy, foggy, and somewhat flawed. But I am a space cadet right now, so when I am in practical situations sometimes I have to let myself settle in and analyze things for a moment or two before getting my hands dirty. It also depends if I'm in the right mindset. Sometimes, I have no idea how to even take something apart, that others can do.
I daydream a lot, and think about a shit ton of hypothetical situations and scenarios, as vague as they may be. I daydream in school a lot, and depression is a generator for such, so that distracts me from doing other productive things, like gaining knowledge or creating hobbies.
I recite passages or external information that stimulates me, in my head.
If someone really pisses me off, or does something very disrespectful in my opinion, I will stop talking to them unless they redeem themselves in my mind. This includes family. (Yeah, I have issues. I know.)
I see life as it is (issues, current events, etc.), but also see it for what it could be. The more knowledge I gain, the more insight I will have related to that.
I'm not too interested in war, world history, and politics.
I have a hard time learning things I'm not interested in, either because I have a potential learning disability, or all my mental energy is focused on what I'm interested in. Or it could be something entirely different. Hard to pinpoint.
I never really got into watching sports as a kid, but very recently I started following baseball. I wasn't athletic as a kid, but I was physically active.
I have anxiety towards things that seem a little "off" to me, like the sound of a voice over the phone, or seeing my reflection in the dark. Also, older technologies sometimes tend to freak me out for some reason, too. I can't pinpoint why for the life of me. I tend to slightly freak out in situations like these. I have been like this ever since I had a dream when I was 4 years old - consisting of me looking at a reflection of myself on a TV screen in the dark, and suddenly a ghost appeared on the TV screen and threatened me.
I've usually strived to get to the end result in anything out of curiosity (video games for example), but recently I've learned it's the process that is most important; it tells you exactly HOW you got to the result, and what you need to do to get there. For example, you can be on a road trip from Miami to Los Angeles, and as soon as you reach San Antonio, you could automatically teleport to LA, without knowing how you got there. Sometimes you need to know how you got there in between; in regards to the road trip situation, what if maps became non-existant out of the blue one day?
I like learning new things mainly so I can have more things to talk about, but as of late, I feel like it would help me theorize better.
I can imagine my capabilities in the future; and see myself having the ability to come up with all kinds of theories, or forming theories combining information.
I usually plan my actions or decisions in advance, but I'm always willing to change them.
There's a possibility I could be on the Ne-Si axis since I sometimes have a tendency to connect new information with past related information, although I would guess anyone can do that to an extent.
Sometimes I need to look at other people's insight or perspectives to recognize the context of a situation. This could be due to my lack of variety of knowledge.
I can become energized by socializing and interacting with the external world (since it can boost my confidence), but I need time alone to contemplate, a lot, and I feel like if I socialize for excessive amounts of time, I might need time alone to recharge (I haven't been in many situations where I have socialized or interacted with the external world excessively). This makes me consider the possibility of being ambiverted.
Sometimes I get so passionate about my thoughts and possibilities, that strong feelings arise from them.
Whenever something negative happens to me, or when I have negative thoughts, negative possibilities and hypothetical scenarios start branching out in my head.
If I'm really depressed, stressed out, or really unhappy with myself, I can go through a withdrawal period (sometimes lasting weeks or months!) where I discern and analyze all of the issues related to my life and contemplate about it, and sometimes come up with ways to possibly fix it, or just wallow in grim conditions until more positive momentum attempts to give me motivation to try and move forward.
If I really love someone, I would try my hardest to do almost anything for them, like bending over backwards for them (even possibly sacrificing logic in certain situations!)
A nagging part of me is really thirsty for love. It could be just out of curiosity since I've never experienced it before, and my possible intuition tells me it's a really great experience.
I have formed many hypothetical situations where I have been in situations consisting of love. In the past, I have actually felt that I would only be content if I just had love, but I was mentally shallow back then.
Sorry if this was TL;DR as frozen hell, but I wanted to be descriptive as possible so you guys can have more accurate insight.