Forgive my English.
Since a child I felt that I was quite different.
I was a very shy kid, people pleaser and had very high moral standards plus some obsessive compulsive features. As a male my first friends were girls. I must mention that I was born in a small rural place and there weren't lots of people around. I just couldn't understand or connect with those rough games that boys were playing. I was very sensitive. It took me a while to get real male friends (those were also quite different). I later developed my physical side because of peer pressure (and still sucked at it). I was extremely interested in religious matters in general sense as well.
One of my parents died and we moved to a city. I was pretty shocked and became recluse. I was in pretty sad state. When the high school begun I started eventually to open to others (I mean I could actually talk to others). It felt good. After that university and masters degree in chemistry. The thing is that I'm not a standard nerd at all. Chemistry itself was actually easy.
I was still very shy but when the anxiety was gone... And social situations without anxiety really energizes me quite a bit.
In general :
I like to be very nice for people and I find them usually very interesting
I'm somewhat nerdy guy
I like structure but I don't really like traditional way of doing things. Little bit improvising sounds great.
Living in the present seems hard. My thoughts are always wandering all over.
One of the strangest things is that I don't really see the point in sex without intimate emotional connection. I'm straight.
Yes, there was very depressive phase in my life when I just couldn't let me be myself.
Years of shadow mode? ENFJ? Is it possible?
There's a still long journey to completely recover but I hope I'll get there.