For the record, I've taken Enneagram tests before, and I know what my score is. But I don't wanna list what my score was right this minute because I don't want it to have an influence on your opinion. ^^;;
I know these traits relate to some particular Enneagram type, but due to my lack of familiarity with it, I can't figure out what:
* I worry very much about how I come across to other people; I want to be unique and stand out, and I want to be able to be comfortable with myself. However, I often go through these periods of self-doubt, becoming very concerned over my ability to take care of myself, but even more-so worrying about how I appear to other people. When I am not emotionally stable *COUGHCOUGHpmsCOUGH*, I start thinking that others see me as this very introverted, awkward, submissive, ineffective person, and such worries have a very negative impact on my self-esteem. I keep feeling like I myself am responsible for how others perceive me, and that I will never be able to reconcile the conflict between my desire to be loved and respected and my desire to be "myself".
* I love learning, or rather making new connections about the world. Ever since I was very young (read: 3-4 years old), every time I saw something that scared, thrilled, or otherwise put me in a state of awe, I would become obsessed with it and want to learn everything I could about that scary thing. Straits of Magellan, volcanoes, Ebola virus, Iceland, classical pieces, certain kinds of bodily injuries, etc. Usually I would see these kinds of things in movies, and if I didn't understand why those things affected me the way they did, then I would do a lot of personal research on the topic until I became an expert on it.
Does this strike anyone as a particular Enneagram type, wing or no wing?