I've established recently that my Enneagram is 8, I read it and I identified with it completely.
Now, my MBTI is more difficult.
I identify with both S and N very much.
I know I am IxxP.
When I take a test I usually get INTP.
Here are my cognitive function results:
Introverted Intuition (Ni) ||||||||||||||||| 7.545
Introverted Feeling (Fi) |||||||||||||||| 7.17
Introverted Thinking (Ti) ||||||||||||| 5.69
Extroverted Sensation (Se) ||||||||||||| 5.57
Extroverted Thinking (Te) |||||||||||| 5.47
Introverted Sensation (Si) |||||||||||| 5.24
Extroverted Intuition (Ne) |||||||||| 4.015
Extroverted Feeling (Fe) ||||||||| 3.68
So as you can see, I have very strong Fi and Ni.
So, here's my argument with myself over S/N, T/F.
I'm an artist. I'm very sensitive to physical touch. I love physical contact (snuggling, sex, hand holding.) I use pornography for, um, aide (apparently Ns are more likely to make fantasies in their mind than watch porn.) I am completely indulgent on physical pleasures. I am constantly nostalgic. I believe everyone's past reveals a lot, I focus a lot on my past and dream about it to get me through life today. I am almost fearful of attempting something (say, going to the next level of a video game) before perfecting it's prerequisites. I love knowing the details. I try not to dream too much when I know I'm dreaming unrealistically.
I am constantly contemplating on things, how they work, what their different outcomes could be, why their end result is the way it is and why it became like that. I space out all the time. I love breaking down things and finding out how they are connected. I use directions as a general guideline, I'm not afraid to go off the page in a spur of ideas if I'm feeling it. I have a deep gut instinct, something inside of me just knows. I love to dream and fantasize (it usually manifests itself through writing and roleplaying) but I know when to come back to reality.
I don't like dealing with other people's emotions. If someone starts crying, I generally clam up because I don't know what to do. I can see all points of a conversation, I will not be blind and dismiss everyone's point of view especially when I can see the rational behind other people's points of view. I will stand for what I want and I won't let other people's opinions shake my own. I enjoy debating (IF it's with someone that's not completely close minded and irrational about their opinion.) I'm not sentimental or compassionate. I will NOT sugarcoat things to spare feelings, if something needs to be said then I say it.
Welp, back to the gut feeling here. If something doesn't feel right to me, I won't do it- even if objectively the best choice would be that I do. I strive to find meaning, I can't stand not knowing what my feelings mean. I go by my emotions, despite not wanting to. Even if I know it's the best decision to choose A, I will choose B if I like it better. I have deep values grounded in my own thoughts and feelings rather than logic and rationalization. I'm a strong believer in doing what I believe to be fair, I won't do something to benefit myself if it completely destroys chances for another person (I guess I have a deep sense of justice.)
What do you guys think? Do I sound like any particular type to you?