Okay. I know a lot of you have seen me around, most likely. You also probably know that I've always identified as a 7w6, but I've recently started to question that. So, I guess I'll just talk about myself a little. I'm 16, by the way. Going on 17. ENFP to a T.
I'll start by saying I love to talk about myself. I'm quite interested in myself, for better or worse. At the same time, though, outwardly, I put all of my energy into others. I care so much about others and will often befriend the "misfit" to make sure they have a friend. I've been told that I've saved lives before. I want to pursue some sort of therapy in my life because I adore helping others out. It often makes me help myself. As much empathy as I have towards others, sometimes I feel conflicted. Sometimes people come to me all the time, for everything, because of how open I am to listen. I always help out, but I'm so used to fighting through my own pain that I sometimes get frustrated, even though I'm the one who offers help.
In the end, though, my warmth towards others and concern and premature maternal instinct is the thing about me that comes second in my list of things I like about myself (again, I really like myself.) My number one thing is my courage. I have been dealt a lot of crappy cards in life in terms of mental health and things like that, and it's shaped me into a resourceful person (again, sorry if I sound prideful, I am a bit pridey) who has the strength to fight through anything and I really love the aspect of bravery that I have. I know I can do anything in the entire world and have extreme confidence and faith in the fact that I will achieve my goals. I want to be on Broadway, and that is the number one thing in life that I will do. If nothing else, that is what I will do. Period. I won't stop until I do. So, in the end, I like my bravery/confidence/self-assured side the most. At the same time, though, I'm extremely driven and perfectionistic to a fault. I HAVE to be the best. It's led to an eating disorder - I won't stop until I feel happy with my body and often sacrifice hanging out with friends to go to the gym and avoid some social gatherings due to the presence of food. But, again, I'm a fighter. That's my number one thing I pride myself on.
My number one goal in life is to be happy. That's the only thing I feel I need in life. But my success Broadway-wise is what will dictate a huge portion of my happiness.
Personality-wise, I'm extremely enthusiastic, passionate, opinionated, and outspoken. I have huge dreams and I'm really idealistic and optimistic - I know in my heart that there is a silver lining and it's impossible to beat me down or ruin my spirit. I'm also very odd and different and eccentric and quirky - always have been. But I’m very nice and everyone knows me as the selfless and sweet one who doesn't have a mean bone in her body. And I love that reputation. I am a leader - not a follower. I’m a very complex and many-layered and chaotic person inside and I don’t even know what on earth is going through my own mind half the time. I'm very speculative and introspective.
I'm a performer. That's pretty much me in every aspect. I live to perform onstage, I love to make others laugh and love the spotlight.
Overall, to sum it up, I'm a fighter. I fight to be the best, to achieve what I want, and to entertain others. I just want to be happy. I feel most at home when I'm onstage, and second most-at-home when I'm helping others. Life is too short to be anything but happy, in my opinion. And I'm odd and weird as hell.
Sorry I sound like an egoist.
Any enneatype help at all is appreciated. I'm thinking maybe I'm not a 7w6 and that maybe a 2w3 or a 3w2 is a better fit. Thanks!