I took MBTI test when i was in high school and i got ISFP. The difference between S and N was very little, but i think i was satisffied with results. However, after few years i found text about types again and i realised i don't really match ISFP. First of all, i deffinitelly don't live in present. I have feeling that my life didn't start yet, and i am waiting for it. I don't like facts or cathegories... When i am studying i read whole book few times, without repeating anything, instead to study part by part and repeat them. I said this because many people find it strange when they hear it. Also, i hate details, i just don't find them important.... I do love art, and i am somehow artistic, but i don't have tallent in artistic fields where i have to make something with my hands. I am only good in writing, and i was good in acting in my teens (i wasn't on stage since high scool). And i prefer spending type in house, not really outside. But, i do procrastinate a lot, for example.
Anyway, not long ago, i took some MBTI test again and got INFP, but after it, i took different wersion of MBTI, and then Socionics test and got INFJ.
I am only sure i am highly I, and probably F, but i need opion from someone who knows more about this matter and have experience with people.
I find it strange to talk about myself with people... So, my sentences could look a bit chaotic right now. I was told few times that i am weird an unusual. I heard from some people that they it hard to talk to myself because i make wall around myself, i look cold, distand and uninterested, but i believe i just need time. In genneral, i need more time to think about some problem and more time to react than average person. On the other hand, even some people got surprised when they hear i study social work, i had lot of success in talk with people who are in needs. I spent some time in few institutions where social workers can work, on practice, and i in general had very good relations with all people i worked with and they talked to me more than to other people. I feel related to people with some problem, because on some way i feel rejected from official society, on soul level.
Other than this, i could be very melancholic. Few years ago, i was diagnosed with depression, but i always accepted it like normal part of myself, not like illness. There is something nice in sadness after all. I have to say that i also have somehow dark side of myself. And no, i don't want to hurt other people, and i am not evil, but it happen that i think about dark side of the world, and feel it inside. I sometimes write about it, all my stories are reflection of my inner world; about love and hate and huiman soul between it. I am attracted to mysterious things , so i study astrology, what you could notice if you look my name here. But then, i feel need to help people, solve their problems (that's why i study social work). I am not sure am i idealist or not. I wan't better world, but i see bad things of current one. I want to help, but i am not always optimistic. I am trying to be nice always, but sometimes i can get angry... so i prefer to avoid person or situation when i don't have what nice to say.
In everyday's life, i don't like following rules, but i am not really loud and i don't fight against things i don't like, although they annoy me. I just refuse to follow. I like attention, but i am reserved and controled, so i stay ''in the corner'', although i wouldn't like it always. In general, i feel alone i it's hard to me to relate to this word. I love vintage and retro things, because i feel they have some background, some story to tell... simply, they have a soul.
I have some strange fears, but i believe they are not connected to the type... Fear of birds for example. And i can be quite selective when it comes about food, what is even funny.
So, what do you think? What could be my type? I think i am only sure i'm introvert.
About some things i don't talk to people i know, and not even friends, because i have no idea how they will perceive it. A friend from childhood told me, after 13 years, that she doesn't know me, that she believes she know more about some people after few months, than about me, after many years.
P.S. I hope i didn't bother, i maybe wrote a lot in this post.