hello, typologycentral. i'll get straight to the point to avoid wasting the time of those who are interested as well as those with the intention of helping. i'm a pretty insensitive self-centered individual (but well-intentioned), so much so that i was an outcast as a kid for being hard to tolerate and i've hated the idea that i might be a sociopath or something similar. i was also a nerd as a kid. i loved learning stuff and being smart. school, documentaries, picture-books about animals. that's what was up. i was quirky too; my mom gave me a lot of liberty to dress how i wanted, and it'd usually be very weird things. my favorite thing to wear was a white collar shirt with a pair of plaid blue-and-white shorts because i thought they looked kind of Scottish and cool like that. i also definitely looked up to my parents and teachers more than i related to my peers.
so for the longest time i've thought i'm an INTP because of my insensitivity and nerdiness, but comparing portraits of functional and dysfunction periods of my life make me question whether i'm more Fi or Fe (though both are unmistakingly underdeveloped)
functional periods of my life: like to adventurize and try new things with friends (including drugs) and nerd out. a little more liberal with my dressing, but still somewhat conventional. a little flamboyant. care about the world we live in and have strong feelings about social justice, sustainability, etc. very laid back and almost naive free-spirited attitude that everything will work out and if it doesn't then i'll make the best out of what happens. confident to the point of being charismatic even if i'm perceived to be quirky. feel close to my friends
dysfunctional: either feel really lonely or really overwhelmed with balancing my social life. reserved, self-conscious, very concerned with the way i come off and very concerned with being a good person who makes right choices. nihilistic world outlook that revolves around me. come off as a creeper. feel distant from friends even if i enjoy their company
interests: wikipedia, maps, psychology, chemistry, strategy and role playing games, economics, philosophy, MUSIC, the outdoors, friends
this is all i've got. pretty sure i'm some kind of XNXP. thanks for reading
edit: i should probably add that i relate to Ti more than Te, Si more than Se, and maybe Ne about the same as Ni