I'm really confused.
Now, when I took the MBTI, I tested for both INFJ and INFP; in both instances, the J/P axis were REALLY ambivalent (like, only a 1-8% tilt towards either)
I relate a lot to the issues common to INF's (being sensitive about ideals, etc.), http://www.typologycentral.com/forum...fp-issues.html , http://www.typologycentral.com/forum...fj-issues.html
But the thing is...I relate to issues from BOTH INFP and INFJ. I definitely relate to the INFJ tendency becoming 'merged' with and over-protective of certain characters I obsess upon, such as movies and such. For instance, I remember just the other day, I was on the college campus, and someone was trying to tell me about an alternate ending to Sucker Punch that I did NOT want to hear; I literally ended up yelling at them "We are NOT talking about this! WE ARE NOT TALKING ABOUT THIS! Not to ME!" until they finally took a hint and shut up. (It's not that I was trying to squelch out their voice, but rather that I feel like I very strongly relate to the character of Babydoll, and I didn't want him to tell me something that made her seem weak because then I would feel like I would be made out as weak. See where I'm going, here?)
However, I feel like I have no issues about being 'reserved' that are commonly associated with INFJs. I don't feel like I have problems 'opening up' to anybody, but I do feel like sometimes I have to backpedal and shut people out of my life if they prove too needy or taxing on me. And I am also sensitive to criticism in the way that INFP's are, because I feel like any ideas or creative endeavors I undertake are a complete masterpiece, and that criticizing a part of it would be to criticize the WHOLE of it, as well as the whole of ME.
I feel like I have a conflict between Fi/Fe; I feel like I KNOW the expectations and society of those around me, but that I can't always conform to them because it would be sacrificing myself. At the same time, sometimes I KNOW what I want to do, but I'm forced to prevent myself from going through with it because I know then I would be violating a social more and therefore would be in a position of conflict. For instance; I am a skilled driver, but haven't yet passed my driving test; were I not concerned in the unlikely 'what-if' chance that I'd be pulled over (Fe), I would go ahead and drive on my own anyway. As for my Fi cockblocking my Fe, I know that I would probably have less conflict with my environment if I accepted the fact that I was bisexual and settled for a boyfriend (there are many that would like my company), but my Fi tells me that that's not what I want, and that I'd rather have female company (i.e. a girlfriend).
I feel like I am REALLY not aware of my own body (Si); I often forget to take showers and brush my teeth, and often even forget to EAT because my mind is so engrossed in other affairs. However, my Si is also acute, in a way, because I have an eidetic memory (for auditory stimuli, meaning I have perfect pitch), and the strength of an emotional memory never fades (I STILL feel like crap whenever I remember an argument I had with my parents over 4 years ago, or whenever I think of a problem I've had or whenever I've put them in a compromising position, and I still apologize profusely to them whenever the memory comes back). I have very acute senses as well; I am often prone to sensory overload, meaning that if I am presented with too much going on in my environment at once (too many people trying to IM me at once, or someone trying to talk to me while the TV is on), or if my attention is pulled in too many directions at once, I will become agitated VERY easily and VERY quickly. I find myself wishing I were more spontaneous, and were able to carry out some of my ideas on a whim (for instance, say someone invites me to a party that same day, I will often decline because I don't 'feel like it', and then end up feeling crappy about myself and wishing I were more able to react on such impulses).
As for my Introverted Intuition...it's complicated. I have a vivid imagination, and I often find myself daydreaming about various ways something could play out (be it in my own life, or a fictional scenario). I have a way of becoming suddenly obsessed with certain characters from movies/tv shows even before I know about their characterization. It's not even just a superficial design either...it's usually that I'll see the character in a trailer and I'll think nothing of it, but then I'll be carrying on a few days afterwards and find that character's appearance and/or voice sticking in my head...and I'll slowly become obsessed with them. Obviously, this is not a superficial infatuation, because it takes a while for it to develop, and while aspects of character design and personality come into play, it's usually what I feel like the character represents that fascinates me: an aloof, mysterious woman who has strange powers or holds a position of control or authority. As for Extroverted Intuition...I dunno.
Well...that's all I have so far. Does anyone have anything they'd like to ask or add to help me find my type? Am I heading in the right direction?