I wrote in the enneagram sub forum and got different answers so I'm sorta confused about what my tritype could be...This something I wrote please take a look and tell me what you think.
I moved to a four year university far from my home because I felt like I needed too knowing that financially I couldn't afford it, I wanted a stereotypical "college" experience because my life has not been normal and I was sick of it. I was sick of the people and place. I needed to find me because I felt lost, I guess that is perfectionist in me. I didn't have a stereotypical "college" experience because I realize that was dumb of me and I didn't really want that in the long run. I did find out a lot about me, so I enjoy that very much so. I typically try to change my life to make it suit my ideals in what I want. I try to have revelations where I get all the answers and sometimes it works and I figure things out. Other times I screw myself into dumbness and bad things happen, and things get worst.
I've always had these brief moments where I strive to get what I want, but I am way to lazy of a person honestly and I really don't want to do anything. I want to relax alone, listen to music take pictures of the world and maybe hangout with close friends. I know I am lucky to have school as an option, but I hate it and wish I had a trust fund that lasts me my whole life. I am not a go getter by any means, I don't really enjoy doing stuff in the world like working. I want to enjoy life, but in my way.
I do not do conflict well and would rather just go with what you say, as long as it doesn't harm my being in any way. That being said I am not afraid to have a conflict with family, if they annoy me, then I am not afraid to conflict with them. Other people it has to build up then and only then can I just explode and I never want to talk about again unless it hurt my feelings that bad.
I find myself always talking about how I am, which makes me sounds like people don't know me well enough, I think I just do that for they can get the gist of me without getting too deep about personal stuff. Feelings do over take me randomly, I deal with them alone and try to evaluate them, the reason behind it and sometimes try to figure out the why I feel that way. When alone I act like a kid jumping around and doing random things, with someone I am comfortable with I recently realize I am not as down as I convince myself to be, I tend to talk and do random things, but I don't think I'm as kiddy. I delve into philosophical topics or try to get to know them better than I already do.
I take things as signs and when things get too much I just throw it into the air and figure I'll find a solution for it. Also I start believing things that do not logically make sense to me, so it can be religion (for me it doesn't logically make sense not trying offend.) or pop psychology like "the secret" and even karma all the while thinking up solutions.
Oh I and I like to be independent, on my own and not having to ask for things that is a pretty big part of me.
Sorry there is a lot here, but I'm trying find my type and have to make sure there is evidence lol.
Thank you for reading this.