Okay I was confused for a while about everything in enneagram and the MBTI world, but I think I made some type progress, anyway I believe I'm a INFJ, a lot of it matches me as for my enneagram type I thought I could be a 4-6-9, or 4-5-9, so let me explain a part of me and maybe you could get something from that.
I never felt so complex as a child, but I always felt different. While everyone was experimenting with drugs and what not in high school, I was playing games with my little sister. I always felt more mature then them, but very kidish at the same time. I never got wrap into the high school scene and finish as early as possible because to me it didn't live up to my ideal high school experience it was fake and annoying. Pretty much in the smack middle of the suburbs and the ghetto so you had the preppy click or the ghetto click. There were a few of what people called the outcast and those were the people I liked the best, they spoke normal and like the same things as me, they were the minority of the school.
I've been called snobby or high class by people because I am unhappy were I live, I don't like "the streets" and I would love to live a nice suburban neighborhood and have a nice life, not having to work hard, but to me I never felt like I belonged there in that school and neighborhood and was very annoyed that I was cursed to be there. I feel like I was dropped into the wrong life. Same with my family they are all different from me, they speak differently their goals in life are different, they seem fine where they are in life and if I had they're life and where it seems to be going I would not be happy. I would be disappointed in myself. I have high standards I guess you can say, but I only tried putting them on myself and maybe my family when I was a child, as I got older I stopped and realized some people are just a that way.
I am ranting, but I don't want lose you all so here are words to describe me.
Goofy (When I am alone usually)
Playful (When I am alone usually)
Materialistic (Meaning I like nice things, but I think its because I don't ever get nice things)
What I am really confused about is what does all this sound like? I feel their so many sides of me. What I am sure of is I can get deep into my emotions and I get feelings from everything. I am scared of fighting of any kind and I wish my dreams were real, because there always way better then my reality.
Types I've considered were 4w5 5w4 6w5 9w1 1w9 and maybe 4w3.
I typed as a 4w5, 5w4, or 5w6, but I have no clue for the rest of my tritype.
I think I may be a Sp/So because I never got anything different and it makes sense for me.
So help please.