I gave her the questionnaire to fill out:
1)How does she view reality?
I’m not exactly fond of ‘reality’. If we’re talking about the reality of life in general, I think it’s subjective. I think everyone experiences their own, so I don’t see one reality everyone has to accept or anything. I think there are facts people should accept, for example, facts of science or the fact that horrible things are happening in other countries. Other than things of that nature, I guess I don’t really see there being a reality.
2) What is she most mentally energized by? What is she most mentally drained by?
I feel most energized, and also most like myself, when I’m by myself thinking about things like the troubles of the world, different perspectives of things that happen to not only me, but people around the globe and what I’m going to be doing in the distant future with regards to school and marriage. I hate getting bogged down in day to day affairs, I find all that SO stressful. It seems to be happening a lot because I’m in a really crappy work situation and I hate it so, so much. That’s what I’m most mentally drained by. Dealing with everyday crap and dealing with people. I much rather prefer just being alone and in my head.
3) What are her biggest priorities? (i.e. overarching logical consistency, the materialization of a special plan or vision, certainty...?) My biggest priority right now is my relationship with my fiancée. We’ve been through a lot together and I feel like I’ve finally found someone who accepts me for exactly who I am and wouldn’t change me for the world. After that would be my plans for the future but those aren’t set in stone… because of that, I think it’s more a priority of making sure I’ll have a good future I’ll appreciate years down the road which includes going to school and getting a degree in something I love, getting married and having a family, though I don’t know that I want children, I lean more towards no.
4) In general, what does she fear, dread, or reject the most? (i.e. unpredictability, lack of clarity, lack of mental or moral autonomy, impersonal uniformity...?) I fear loss of emotional security, not being able to be myself and staying stuck in this society where I have to be a certain way in order to be accepted. I have a big fear of rejection and abandonment. I have trust issues. I don’t like not having control over my life and I hate being told what to do. That’s not to say I won’t do what people need me to do when I can, but being TOLD to do it makes me want to flat out reject it.
5) When she comes across a new concept or idea, what does she do to help herself understand it? What is her primary method of problem-solving? Usually understanding something doesn’t take more than a few minutes at most. A lot of times I’ve already thought about what’s being presented to me so understanding takes no time at all. Agreeing on it is another matter, though. Compromise would be my primary method of problem-solving. I would try to make everyone (be it a group or just me and another person) happy, including myself.
6) Does she build new perspectives from facts or does she derive facts from new perspectives? More often than not I derive facts from new perspectives. I sit and think and think (naturally, this isn’t something that takes effort for me. I very much enjoy it.) about how I feel about things, how other people see things and that’s how I get my facts of the world. Not just what’s happening but how the whole thing (world/life/humanity/society) works.
7) Is her focus more personal or more impersonal? More technical or more general? How much does she value specificity? Definitely more personal. It’s all about emotions. I tend to feel my way through life. More general usually, can be technical with planning though. Since I’m someone who likes being in control more often than not, I do value specificity, especially when coming to planning things, both for present and distant future. When I’m in a situation where I feel like I have no control I like to know what’s happening, as many details as I can, to make me feel like I have some of that control back. I don’t enjoy it being that way, obviously in situations like that I’m stressed out which leads me too…
8) What line of thought does she most often resort to under stress?
Under stress I become bogged down in unimportant details. I can become impulsive and say/do things I don’t really mean. I hate both of those things so much because it feels like I know I’m acting ridiculous, I know I didn't mean to say that, I know these details aren’t really important and I hate that I’m putting so much significance in them, but it’s like this fog and I can’t see clearly. I try finding my way back to how I know I’d be happier thinking, but I get so stressed and it gets hard for me to stay focused on what I really want.
Reposting this info from my previous post to keep everything together.
EDIT: I guess I could say that she's a little spacey and likes working with the theoretical, hypothetical (thought experiments) and abstract ideas. She's kind of clumsy (as am I) and not really observant about her physical surroundings (when it doesn't involve people watching). She definitely looks for deeper meanings behind images and ideas and is rarely okay accepting the way things seem on the surface. I asked about this and she gave me an example: "the other day i was on a forum and saw an avatar that was just a black and white picture of a leaf but the leaf had a tear on one side. i started thinking about why that person used that avatar and i thought how i love picking up pretty leaves and admiring them but then i started thinking how it could represent people and how we're expected to be a certain way and those of us with tears are discarded and thought less of because we're not perfect just like the leaves and i cried"