I just wanna know if there's someone here that can relate to my situation.
I wouldn't know if I would call myself an extrovert or an introvert. Compare to most people I know, I think I have better verbal articulation skills, but that's because it's a defense mechanism for me for the fear of being continuously misunderstood. It's kinda like speaking as a countermeasure to the negative effects of shyness, ironic as it may seem, and capitalizing on my NT, the rewards can be fulfilling. It gives me a sense of credibility (at least from an intellectual standpoint). But in some occasions, I would think of myself as Introverted because I still can't display more sophisticated form of extroverted behavior (e.g., flirting, maybe partly because the NT controls it).
Also, I'm wondering if I'm realistically J. I see the battle of J and P as the battle of rigid stable routine of J versus the flexibility and instability of P. Over the past few years, J never worked on me. My patience have shortened over the years, and I have developed my reasoning skills, which usually collides with protocols, and I've become more humanist, which led me to think that I've shifted to P. But I have doubts that the strength of my NT would have made me still cling to J for a certain degree of security. After all, P is pretty much risk oriented.
Anyone here experiences the same situation?