Let me preface this by saying I usually score ENFP on tests and inventories and whatnot. However, I have been looking into MBTI types for, what, two years now and have still not settled on any one type that I feel completely fits.
However, I have some issues here. I often see ENFPs described as bubbly and naively cheery. I really don't think this fits me. I mean, I'm not clinically depressed but I'm somewhat of a cynical guy. To be honest, I think I'm too mean and sadistic for ENFP I get really vengeful and bitter when I feel threatened and I definitely have shown an unsympathetic and unforgiving side in the past. In arguments I get really brash and purposefully say things I know will hurt or piss off people. So does this make me an ENTP? I do like toying with people and i love arguing but I don't feel like I'm completely T either because I still relish strong and powerful emotions, thrive on the new and the nover and I feel like I'm a little more in tune with feelings (whether that be my own or other people's) than ENTP lets on. And if I'm being honest about negative behavior, I really do have a fundamental need to have everyone like me, which I've seen attributed to ENFPs before.
Then I worry about I vs E.
I am shy when I first get to know someone, but I think this is mostly because I am very self-conscious and worried that I'll make a mistake. Ok, so that seems really I, but after taking that into account there's the fact that there's nothing I hate more than being alone and bored. Interacting with other people is infinitely interesting to me, if not essential to my life, and I never get tired of hanging out with friends/going out.
So I'm recharged by social interaction. But I'm still not running around and easily talking to strangers- I'm terrified of being judged by people I don't know, like I said. So I probably seem really shy when I first meet people, especially if they intimidate me, but I really do not tolerate being alone and not having someone to talk to well.
So am I ENTP? ENFP? INFP? (I'm pretty sure I'm not INTP just from reading summaries of the type, but who knows)
Or am I just some monstrous alien with no real personality at all? When I take these tests I'm always so indecisive and worry that I'm answering how I want to answer rather than how I truly am (there's that P- I'm sure of that letter, haha).
Thanks, guys- I've lurked for years but never have made an account before today! Just getting so frustrated.