First , I have to say, I'm really diggin' this forum so far. I get to talk about myself a lot and no one cares because they actually do care. Everyone seems to talk about themselves and yet, stil listen to others at the same time, and some issue is magically resolved, or clarified in some way. It's uncanny. Well, I'm new, so I guess I'll just jump right in, hopefully the water is very astute in psychology and also warm.
This will probably be long, for those of you who care. Some of you really sound like you know what you're talking about, so if you care, give me a hug and tell me that I won't be lost for too long.
Alright, I need help on figuring out me. I can't seem to find me so someone else please do it for me.
So, I have taken a thousand tests and have gotten mostly INTP, INFP, ISFP and a few ISTP. I know I am introverted and lazy, I just need help with the other two. I am inclined to lean more toward INFP, but I just looked at descriptions of ISFP and have read a lot of what of you have said about them, and well.. now I don't know anymore.
It seems both INFP and ISFP match me equally and both match me very accurately. I take the tests were the results tell you the percentage of each, and am always so close to 50% on S and N and also on F and T. I feel confident that I'm an F because I seem to respond to displeasing things by strong feelings that usually are illogical, then need to take a step away before I say some stuff I'll regret. My girlfriend swears up and down I am really "N", and based on what she's said, I believe her. But.. the ISFP description really sounds insanely close to how I am also. And I do like kind of live in the present, enjoy stimulation like randomly jumping in a pool with all my clothes on, and would love to go skydiving and stuff, love animals and nature, like to sleep, won't back out of a fight with a huge dude even though I know I'll lose because it's just something that doesn't happen everyday and is different. But the N seems like me too, I'm in my own little world all the time, kind of weird compared to many, seem to be able to read people well, I'm always thinking of what could happen, usually in my sense of humor, like "wouldn't it be crazy if...". Both say I'm really shy and reserved and hard to get to know, which is an understatement, I'm very socially awkward.
So i'll spare a bunch of details about myself for now because I might just be wasting time with irrelevant little facts that don't pertain to figuring out the N or the S.
So how would anyone here go about trying to give me some peace of mind. I mean, I am up at night, tossing and turning, beating my head against the pilow while the voices in my head are screaming at the top of their imaginary lungs "Ssssssssssssssssssss... WAIT.. or is it Nnnnnnnnnnnn!". I feel like I can't work, can't eat.. food has lost all taste, and now I'm afraid to even turn off the lights at night.
So, I guess this is where we ask questions and answer stuff and try to get me to pay attention to little details about my personality as situations arise.
Won't someone help me? I could really use that hug.