Hello all! I recently joined this forum and have found it to be quite interesting. I'm happy to be amongst other self obsessed folks, or self analytically inclined rather.
Obviously, I'm a bit confused about my "type" and would appreciate some help. It's been bugging so much these past few weeks, I feel like I need to be completely certain which particular type is my best fit. Life or death?No. But need to know, yes.
Here's some snippets that I think would be helpful. I'm really going to try to be concise and not type an essay! (this will be hard to fight my rambles)
I've always been introverted and shy, and loved being alone. As a child, my mother thought that maybe I had trouble seeing, because I would just stare intensly at people and things. I wasn't a very friendly child, but very sweet, wanting everyone to be happy, always trying to help. I was a very conscientious student and would feel devastated if I ever got into trouble or performed poorly. I was a perfectionist early on, but a MAJOR procrastinator...a habit I'm still trying to quit!
I remember being very sensitive and uncomfortable around strangers (even extended family...so many relatives thought I didn't like them), but would be relaxed, playful and a bit moody with my family. Very imaginative and loved to read...esp. picture books, fairytales, and oddly encyclopedias. Playing with my siblings, drawing, and living in a fantasy world were my leisure activities.
I always had a close circle of 2-3 friends. My role was frequently the link. The one who the others complained to. I've been in several triangulated friendships where my affections were fought over, or I had to choose allegiance. This still confuses me. All I wanted was for everyone to get along. I detest drama, but tend to attract dramatic people who eventually drain me.
(Bear with me..this is so much longer than I intended , now it's time to condense majorly)
College years, to sum, changed my major a few times (from Psychology, to Studio Art, to Religion) and finally graduated with English Literature after returning from taking time off. In between this period, I went through many changes in my life, experienced some extreme lows as well as highs (not literal..at least not always). I refer to this period as either my Dark Days, or my Bohemian Days.
Got introduced to Myers Briggs during this time. I usually got INFP. I'd like add that I was in another triangulated relationship with my best friend and her girlfriend, and definitely overly identified with them. I felt like I needed to be less of a prude, stiff, and needed to lighten up, live more in the moment. During this time, I was very unsure of myself and my identity, and felt a need to conform to the social scene I was a part of. I no longer associate with 99% of the people from this period.
Recently I've been testing more as INFJ or ISFJ. I also feel more accepting of myself and feel less of a need to be a certain way. I love time to myself, nature, music, movies, reading, writing. I think constantly about my future and feel like theres so much in the material and spiritual I'd like to accomplish.
There's so much more I want to type, but this is obnoxiously long enough. Thank you for anyone who read this. I don't have a complete grasp on the different functions, yet btw....but I'm positive that I'm not and E or S. I enjoy planning, but making life major decisions can stress me out. I often need to triple analyze to make sure I'm doing the right thing for my future. Pro and cons list are my friends. I can be a worrywort, and be b*tchy at times, but really only if I feel overwhelmed or haven't had sufficient time to myself. My dreams inform me frequently. I often think "whats the point of this story" if someone is rambling, though I ramble myself at times.
While I definitely feel that the human experience is entirely too large to be confined to a strict system, I do find this whole thing to be a helpful tool.